The post that talks about lots of stuff.

So this is my “I have so much that I want to talk about, but it’s not enough for individual posts, so I’m going to throw it all into one.” Sooooo here. we. go!

First things first… I know I posted a picture of me and my family I took on Christmas, but I found this gem that I forgot to post! I REALLY liked my outfit. (Very casual I know…) BUT, the jeans I wore were very loose… I had to keep hiking those bad boys up because they kept falling down, and I haven’t worn that open sweater in what seems like forever. I got it WOW 4 years ago… And I’m just wearing it now… (See what I said, it seems like forever ago.) I’m happy that I’m seeing “somewhat” of a progress. I still have a very large head. 😛


So I went to Costco on Friday… I LOVE THAT STORE! So many goodies. We were going to go to Sam’s Club as well, but just didn’t have enough time. Here’s what I got…


18 chips = 2PP


1 Package (42 crisps) = 3PP


22 Pieces = 3PP


4oz = 3 PP


1 Serving (3 Tbsp) = 3 PP

I got some good stuff! I heard that Dr. Oz says the Chia Seeds are really good for you (I also heard this from my boss who is a Dr.) so I figure, “why not give it a try.” I also am in love with the BBQ Pop Chips and the Pretzel Crisps. I’ve tried the Pretzel crisps with humus… OH YUM. I am kinda indifferent about the snap pea’s… I haven’t had much of em, but I think if you pear it with something else, it would taste better. To me, they really have no taste at all. I’d rather eat a fresh pea pod to be quite honest. They aren’t terrible is what I should really say. The chicken… Don’t know much about it really… It was sample heaven day there when I went (good thing I didn’t eat lunch because there were so many samples… and who can really say “no” to a sample… I mean, they are so small and FREE).

I went shopping more today because I was running out of “healthy” foods.

IMG_9726This was my cart when I was finished. Really sad at how much I actually spent… It was around the $80 mark. Plus I spent close to $20 at Aldi as well (2 bags of lettuce, 2 bags of chicken breasts, bag of fresh green beans, and cherry tomatoes). Here’s what’s in my cart:

  • Whole Wheat Flour
  • Fat Free Cottage Cheese
  • Sour Cream
  • 5 containers of Vanilla Oikos Yogurt (I decided I would try Chobani the last time because it’s made here in MN… GROSS. Never again will I buy Chobani. I also put the chia seeds in the yogurt and it tastes like I’m eating bubble pudding!)
  • String Cheese
  • Martzetti Simply Dressed Dressing, Light Caesar
  • Pop Secret Jumbo Popping Corn (My dad has one of those big popcorn poppers in our basement. You know those big ones with the glass all around it? Those cool old fashion looking ones… 3 Tbsp unpopped is 5 cups popped and only 3PP)
  • Green Grapes
  • Beef Lil’ Smokies (for new years we’re bringing lil smokies wrapped in bacon… Not the healthiest but it’s what my family likes. I just won’t eat the countless amounts I have in the past.)
  • Wonton shells
  • Shredded Cheese (it was 4/$5… I couldn’t pass up that deal… Cheese say hello to freezer!)
  • Black Olives (I don’t care if they are unhealthy, I freakin love me some black olives.)
  • Frozen Veggies (mixed, corn, mushrooms)
  • Panko Breadcrumbs
  • Fat Free Evaporated Milk
  • Kashi Flax Seed bars
  • Diet Lipton Raspberry White Tea
  • Glad Press n Seal Wrap (THIS STUFF IS AMAZING)

And for a treat I went to Caribou and got a coffee to drink while I was shopping.

So if you have a strong dislike for Winter like I do… You seem to find yourself having “wintertime blues”. I love sunshine and warmth, and am outside so much during the Spring and Summer months. Winter months however… I rarely am outside. So I find myself having a lot of days where I get kinda sad and depressed. To help me get out of this “funk” I turn up the playlist I made on Spotify of my favorite up-beat songs and either dance around like a crazy person or go workout while listening to it. I love getting suggestions for new music so I’m going to pass this playlist along just in case you are needing some ideas. (I’m listening to this now and totally having a jam session!)

Let’s Get Moving.

  1. The Walker – Fitz and the Tantrums
  2. The Days – Avicii
  3. I Will Never Let You Down – Rita Ora
  4. Rather Be – Clean Bandit
  5. Brainstorm – Arctic Monkeys
  6. Ugly Heart – G.R.L.
  7. Heroes (we could be) – Alesso
  8. A Sky Full of Stars – Coldplay
  9. Wild Wild Love – Pitbull, G.R.L.
  10. Trumpets – Jason Derulo
  11. Vacation – G.R.L.
  12. Popular Song – MIKA, Ariana Grande
  13. Yeah 3x – Chris Brown
  14. Anaconda – Nicki Minaj
  15. Starships – Nicki Minaj
  16. Run the World (Girls) – Beyonce
  17. Tootsee Roll – 69 Boys
  18. Don’t Stop The Music – The Treblemakers (Pitch Perfect)
  19. Trebles Finals: Bright Lights Bigger City/Magic – The Treblemakers (Pitch Perfect)
  20. Oh Cecilia (Breaking My Heart) – The Vamps


Seriously, how can you not just jump up and dance around like a fool? 🙂

Hopefully you had a great Monday! 🙂



Hello friends! So this past weekend I had my whole house to myself because my parents flew to Las Vegas. Oh it was lovely. Had a friend over on Friday and we had Papa Murphy’s Mediterranean DeLite Pizza, their new cheesy bread, and then to top it off we made chocolate chip cookies. While we ate we watched Maleficent (superb movie… she hadn’t seen it yet but I went to it while it was in theaters), The Fault in Our Stars (holy crap did I cry… I’m not ashamed), and then she passed out so I turned on Scream 4 because I was in no way tired. Scream 4 is probably my favorite out of the Scream movies. They’re all kinda stupid, but 4 I guess was a little more “scarier” meaning I jumped a few times. By the time I went to bed it was well after 3AM.

Saturday morning we went out to breakfast to Perkins and I had a Mediterranean omelet, has browns, and pancakes. (I’m just noticing my meals were all Mediterranean…) Came back home, took a nap, then I cleaned, put dishes away, and loaded the dishwasher. Around 6:30pm I decided I’d watch some Netflix. HAH!


And boy did I binge… I binged hard. Oh Nikita… It’s such a fantastic show!!! Doesn’t help once you get hooked, you can’t stop… It’s almost like a drug. It’s just so easy to hit play on the next episode. I luckily don’t binge watch shows that often… I normally have more control… The last time I did this it was with One Tree Hill 3 years ago. It was bad… real bad. It was a couple weeks before I started nannying so I wasn’t working yet. I watched all 8 seasons in under a week and a half… There were days I stayed up around 20 hours and then would be up that long if not more the next day as well. BAD I KNOW! Like I said though, I haven’t done anything like that since. Last night I stayed up until 4am. Didn’t help I stayed up late the night before and then took a nap during the day, so I wasn’t tired until the 4am mark. When I finally put the dogs to bed and got upstairs, it was 4:30. Of course I was so close to finishing the series (only had 4 episodes left) I got up at 7:30 to finish it. If you couldn’t tell by now, I guess I’m a tv junkie. (Dream job actually would be to work for a television series or like CBS or something along the lines of that…) I would be great as the person who watches the frames to see if everything matches up right… I’m great at spotting the “difference” between shots… Any who, once I finished Nikita, I sat there like…


*I really was tearing up… It was a great finale*

and then after a while I was like…


I know I’m not the only one out there with this silly problem, so that makes me feel a little better about it.

I should probably now talk about how CRAPPY of a Weight Watcher I was this week. I’ll be the first to admit it, and I’m not feeling guilty about it either. I didn’t track at all this week and I barely worked out. Only thing I can keep telling myself is, tomorrow is a brand new week. I’ll face the scale and do better. I do have New Years Eve and Day plans now, but there’s no excuse why I can’t do better the other days of the week. This last week I saw it as, “Well I already screwed myself over with Christmas Eve and Day foods so I might as well just not even worry much about this week.” I can see that now by saying that, I haven’t learned the key part of healthy eating and losing weight. I’ll get there, but I haven’t quite gotten to that point yet. Keyword being yet. Can’t and won’t give up. I’m really looking forward to it being January actually. January 1st I’m doing the 30 Day Shred Jillian Michael’s Workout DVD. I’ve started the DVD so many times in the past, but I’ve never gone past week 1… My goal for January is to do it the whole month. I’m going to try to do the workout 4 times a week (Jillian really kicks my butt so I don’t want to go too extreme… I want to finish it!) Hopefully since I have all of you to update, I’ll actually follow through this time. Scratch that, I WILL FOLLOW THROUGH.

Alrighty my friends, I should be hitting the hay. I ended up taking a 2.5 hr nap after I picked the rents up at the airport tonight. (Seriously, I gotta stop taking naps…) 😉

Here’s to a new day tomorrow!


Christmas goes by faster and faster every year. It’s really scary to me actually. My body though is finally just now feeling all of the past week’s business. I really want to take an Advil PM and head up to bed, but I have to drive my parents up to the airport at 5am. They’re going to Las Vegas for my uncles wedding (Dad’s brother). I am the only one out of my dad’s family not going and not invited. Long story…

I love Christmas. I love spending time with family. We had Christmas at our house again this year and even though the week leading up to today felt like hell at times, when it finally came however, it’s the best in the world!


My Aunt, Mom, Me, and other Aunt

When I was growing up, we celebrated all the holidays at “The Lake”. The Lake is my safe haven. It’s my most favorite place to be. Let me tell you about this wonderful place. “The Lake” is the house I spent my childhood growing into the person I am today. My grandparents bought the cabin when my mom and her siblings were growing up.


During the summer time, my moms family would live out at the lake. That’s how my mom met my dad. My dad’s family had the cabin next door. Once everyone grew up and was out of the houses, both sets of my grandparents moved into the their cabins and lived on the lake full time. While I was growing up, it was awesome having both sets of grandparents living right next door to each other. What was also awesome was my great grandma lived right next door as well! (After she died though my Uncle (mom’s brother) moved in, and has lived there ever since.) When the property became too much work, my dad’s parents sold the cabin and moved into town. My aunt now lives in the cabin full time, but my whole family owns a part of it.

If you’ve ever lost a family member or even someone you’ve been close to, you will understand the pain of these next paragraphs. My Grandma was diagnosed with brain, lung, and bone cancer and was not doing well for a long time. She was a fighter though and didn’t give up. When the doctors said there was nothing more to be done, we brought her home per her wishes, so she could die in peace at the lake. I remember the day she died like it was just yesterday… It was the last weeks of summer vacation. My mom and dad wanted me to have fun so they let me go to my friends cabin with her family for the long weekend. I remember waking up that day just feeling kinda funny; something just didn’t feel right. I tried to go about the day as normal as I could, but in the afternoon I decided I just needed to take a nap. I dreamt I was at the lake with my grandma. We were outside by her garden talking and laughing and she wasn’t in pain and she was actually able to be outside. The next thing I knew, my friend was waking me up to hand me the phone. It was my mom telling me that my grandma had passed away. Just typing this out now is making all of those same emotions come flooding back… I didn’t want to believe what she was saying, but then I remembered my dream, and knew it was her way of saying goodbye. My whole family was with her when she passed. A month after her funeral, I remember being out at the lake and my family talking about a ketchup bottle that was in the fridge. It was a heinz bottle (she hated heinz) and everyone was freaking out. I remember looking at my grandpa and seeing for the first time, sadness. He wasn’t the same Bapa I’ve always known. He didn’t have the glow or spark anymore. I walked out of the house and went to my grandma’s garden, sat down and cried.

Two months later, I was sitting in my Speech class. We were getting ready to go work on our speeches in the media center when I was called down to the office. Thinking there was a note for me down there I went down with some friends. As I was walking, I noticed my godmother standing there. I looked down the hall and saw my cousin walking towards us. Not at all knowing now what was going on, I asked her what was wrong. She wouldn’t look at us and only said, “get in the car.” We got in the car and she drove us to the Emergency Room parking lot. She told us to get out and walked us inside. My heart stopped when I walked in and saw my family standing there crying. I didn’t know what was happening. My mom and aunts ran over to me and told me that my grandpa had died. Again, I can’t even type without crying. I felt my whole world just caving in… I ran out of the building and ran down the street. I worked at the nursing home a block away and just kept running until I ended up there. I ran inside looking for a co-worker to confide in… That’s when I broke down. I cried like a fool not caring at all what I looked like, I just couldn’t be in the hospital where my family was.

My grandpa died of a broken heart. My two aunts were with him when it happened. They were sitting around the table laughing and joking around and making breakfast. He got up to go to the bathroom, and when he walked into the bathroom, collapsed and died.

You must be thinking, “how can the lake be your favorite place in the whole world when two of the people you love most in this world, died there?” I love it because I feel closest to them there. I was a grandma and grandpa’s girl. I was Oma’s “honey” and Bapa’s “bumblebee”. I was wrapped around their fingers from the day I was born. So when I’m out there, I feel their presence all around.

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I named this post Remembrance for the sole purpose of this… There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of my grandparents and how much I truly miss them. Holidays are especially hard because it’s the ones you love you want to be with. I wish they were still here, but I know they are both looking down on all of us and smiling.  I wish every day that they could be here to see me take this weight loss journey. I know they would stand behind me and my Oma would say, “You can do it, Honey. I’m so proud of you!” and my Bapa would be right there saying, “Aye!” and giving me high fives. Those thoughts keep me going.

Thanks for all you’ve taught me Oma and Bapa, and for always being here when I need someone to talk to. Miss you! ❤



I would like to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. I probably won’t be on here at all tomorrow, so I wanted to say it now before I forget.

Just wrapped some presents while listening to Josh Groban’s Christmas CD on Spotify. Ahh I sure do love this time of year! Well, better get downstairs.. going to watch a Christmas movie with my mom.


My Amazing Skills.

So here are some videos of me doing DDR. I’m super surprised that all 268 lbs. of me can move around like this. It’s funny because I know of very active people that can’t even do this. Mwahahaha! This is an AWESOME workout. Love DDR!


Song: Midnight Blaze

Mode: Standard


Song: Rhythm and Police

Mode: Light

Light Chicken Pot Pie.

Light Chicken Pot Pie - found on

  • Servings: 6
  • Difficulty: easy
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  • 1 small onion, finely chopped
  • 8oz mushrooms, chopped
  • 2 small stalks celery, chopped
  • 2 cups mixed vegetables (frozen is fine)
  • 8oz skinless, boneless chicken breasts, cooked and diced
  • 2 tbsp whole wheat flour
  • 1 tbsp light butter
  • 1 cup fat free chicken broth
  • 1/2 cup fat free evaporated milk
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 1/4 tsp black pepper
  • 1 tsp dried thyme
  • 1/2 tsp paprika
  • 4 slices reduced fat crescent roll dough


  1. Preheat oven to 375 and spray a 10” pie plate with cooking spray (butter flavored is best).
  2. In a medium sized pot, melt butter over medium high heat. Add in onions and celery and cook until tender, about 3 minutes. Add in mushrooms and cook for another 3 minutes. Stir in broth, chicken, vegetables, paprika, thyme and salt and pepper. Cover and simmer on medium for about 12-15 minutes.
  3. In a small bowl, whisk together the evaporated milk and flour. Pour into chicken and vegetable mixture and continue to cook on medium heat, stirring constantly until the sauce is thickened, about 3 minutes.
  4. Pour mixture into prepared pie plate, and arrange crescent roll slices around the outside edge, leaving the pie open in the center.
  5. Place into oven and bake until the crust is golden brown, and the center of the pot pie is bubbly, about 15 minutes.
  6. Let cool 10 minutes before serving.

Preparation Time = 15 Minutes
Cooking Time = 45 Minutes

Serving Size = 1/6 of pie
Each Serving = 4 Points+

Christmas Eve Eve.

As my kid sister (not by blood) calls this day… It’s been an okay day. I love time off from work. What my favorite thing to do is… Stay up until like 2am watching Netflix marathons that I start at around 10:30pm. Call me crazy, but I love it! Right now my marathons have been Nikita (TOTALLY love this show. Really sad that it’s over, but I still get to see Maggie Q because she’s on Stalker and I LOVE THAT SHOW!!!!!)

Anywhoozle, I don’t have all that much to say right at the current moment. My day yesterday was pretty boring really… I didn’t do much of anything. I took a nap, chillaxed on the couch, surfed the web, spent an enormous amount of time on Pinterest, and worked on my 2015 calendar. Oh here! I’ll go into details about surfing the web and pinterest and then my 2015 calendar because really, I know you’re just dying to read all about it.

So, I’m looking for a new comforter/duvet and I really have no clue as to what my “style” is. I feel like I’m “country/rustic, bohemian, chic, vintage” all rolled into one. I found a few on Anthropologie that I absolutely LOVE buuuut as you can see when you click on them, they are absolutely way too much for me.

Georgina Duvet (cream)

Copacati Duvet

Meadow Dusk Duvet

The next thing I worked on was I did my calendar for 2015! I’m super excited about filling it out… I made it all fancy and stuff!


This is only January, but the whole calendar looks like this! I’m REALLY hoping I stick with doing it and do it every day… I did good this year in January, pretty good in February, so-so in March, and totally bailed on doing it in April. So we’ll see!! I have faith!

Later on I actually cooked dinner. I didn’t start until 5… Not a smart move on my part… BUT I cooked, and it was DELICIOUS! I received many compliments. I made the Light Chicken Pot Pie I found on LaaLoosh. I definitely recommend trying it!

That’s all I really did yesterday… I know, so exciting.

Well, that now brings me to today! I woke up super early and watched GMA, Kelly & Michael, The View, and then The Chew. Holy cowabunga. So this is what people watch when they are home during the mornings… haha. I then went and picked up my kid sister (again not my sister but she honestly could be… everyone already thinks she is anyways), drove her to Subway and got her, her mom, and my mom lunch then drove her back to my house. After that we played some DDR against each other and  now, I’m talking to all of you and listening to the sweet, sweet sounds of Michael Bolton. 🙂

I should probably wrap this posting up… I was supposed to help the family bake cookies and then I’m going out shopping with my mom because none of us have ANYTHING picked out for each other yet. Our tree will be so bare underneath this year!

I hope you all had a wonderful Tuesday!!


Even after this week… this terrible week of eating out and eating junk…

I lost 2 lbs. 


I had to weigh myself 4 times.

I’ll go more into details later… I have to be at my lab appointment at the clinic in 5 mins. I’m obviously going to be late, but I had to share because I am…


Testify To Love.

Now that I am bawling my eyes out… I am a HUGE fan of Touched By An Angel and I was heartbroken when it ended. If you’ve never actually heard of this song and would like to actually listen to it… here.

I think I’ve had this song on repeat in iTunes for the past half hour. In the car yesterday when I was driving home from work, I had heard a Christmas song by The Judds and remembered that I had this song in my phone. I hurried up and turned on my bluetooth on in my car and on my phone and cranked up the volume. The line, “With every breath I take, Will give thanks to God above. For as long as I shall live I will testify to love” came on and I lost it. A little background on my life for those reading who don’t know me personally… I am a Christian. I went to a Lutheran school my whole life (from preschool on up to 8th grade), then when I was in high school, I continued to be a huge part of my church. I was a Sunday School teacher, one of the drama members (I would put on a little puppet show with my friend… she’d be the puppet “Gordy” and I would be the narrator. Kids seriously LOVED it.) I was also part of the handbell choir and was a part of the brass section (I played the trumpet) for Easter and Christmas. Church was a huge part of my life… Then, a falling out between my family and members of the church happened, and it all came to a complete halt; We left the church and that was it. We tried visiting other churches but nothing seemed to “fit” with me. I had/have an idea of a church in my head, but nothing ever seems close.

Christmas was a huge deal for me and my mom in Church. She’d be in Choir, and I would be with the other Brass, and sometimes we’d also have Handbells the same night. We’d stay for multiple services (even though I didn’t want to) and we’d sometimes be the last ones to leave. Thinking about how long it’s been since I’ve been to a “Christmas Service” makes me cry just typing it. Along with all these emotions, I then am thinking about all the people that aren’t here sharing Christmas with me this year. Some haven’t been here for multiple years, others this is the first. So in the car, listening to this song, I completely lost it. The tears started coming down and I couldn’t stop.

Today – It was a good day. I got to see my best friend and her son. We went Christmas shopping (well she did shopping, I was just there for moral support), we got coffee (I LOVE Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte!), went to Costco (and they didn’t even have what I was there to get), and then we decided we were hungry so we went to Pizza Ranch. Comfort food. I figured, I only had a plain waffle for breakfast and then with the coffee I had… I hadn’t eaten anything else, I had to use up points. (YES I KNOW, Not the best way to use up the points) but then I also came to the conclusion… The damage of this week has been done. So I started out with a HUGE salad (that actually filled me up a lot) and I actually only had 2 small pieces of pizza. (I was also quite amazed.) The thing with Pizza Ranch though is… they have the best mashed taters ever!! So of course I had those… but not the whole plate full that I would normally have gotten. In the end, I definitely used up all the points for the day on that one meal. Probably the only good thing about that is, I am still insanely full and had no ambition to eat dinner anyways.

Honestly, I am so glad that this week is almost over. As I’ve said, I know I’ve gained, so I just want to see the number, face it, and move on. I really hate the holidays I really need to stop making excuses. I ate junk this week. Not because of the holidays, not because its winter time, not because I’m feeling down, not because at times I feel that food is an emotional thing… I ate junk this week because I made the choice of my own free will. I need to stop making excuses.

My macbook is about to die, so this is where I finish this post. Thank you to those who are still with me reading this… I know it’s been a lot. Thanks for listening.

Until next time…

Christmas Vacation!!!

Sooooo excited. Can you see it in my face?


Today at 1:30, I started my first day of my 20 day off break. Twenty days. Holy cowabunga… I am beyond excited. I am going to do the following…
1. Workout whenever I feel like it.
2. Not leave my house unless it’s an emergency.
3. Cooooook!!!!
4. Catch up on my DVR since it’s in the 90% full range.
5. Relaaaaaaaaax.
6. Reunite with my secret lover… His name is Netflix.
7. Spend some quality time with my fur babies.

Seriously though, I’m so excited. I started off my vacation Christmas shopping. All I’ve gotten though is stocking stuffers. Does anyone else have problems with that?! I’m kinda worried about what I’ll get this year… Normally I get junk food up the wazoo. Hopefully (since my mom is supportive) will get me more makeup or something. My dad though is so oblivious to all this it’s pathetic. Oh well, I’ll pawn off whatever junk I do get. It’s not a big deal I suppose! 🙂 anywho, back to stocking stuffers… I shopped at the dollar store. Haha. I got some pretty funny/cool stuff so haha we’ll see if it goes over well.

Afterwards I ended up going out to eat with my folks. I hadn’t eaten all day, (literally, I hadn’t eaten anything but a piece of banana bread and a venti skinny latte from Starbucks at like 8 this morning… Yeah yeah I know I know, that wasn’t smart of me… But one of my nanny kids ended up eating the snack I brought while we were at the other two’s hockey games. Since I didn’t want to deal with a crabby and screaming that he was hungry 2 year old, I just sucked it up and gave it to him.) So by the time we FINALLY ate at 6:45, I was starving. I got thee most DELICIOUS burger I’ve ever had… It’s called the Greek Burger. It’s a hamburger with creamy cucumber sauce, cucumbers, diced tomatoes, basil, and melted feta cheese. Seriously… It. Was. So. Good. Along with that I had some sweet potato fries. I pretty much know I’ve gained weight this week. It really hasn’t been a good week for me, but the more I think about it… I’m not mad or sad at myself. I’m human. I’m bound to make piss poor choices… I just have to learn from them.

Well, I’m cleaning my room and watching Nikita, but it’s mostly watching Nikita and not really cleaning. Tehehe. My life is oh so exciting!!!