I’m in a funk.

I don’t really know what to say, just letting everyone know that I’m still here.

I don’t know if it’s the hormones, or the fact that I’m sick of winter and I need sunshine and warmth, or what… just not at all feeling like myself. I’ve been a major hermit the past week; only going out to work and then coming straight home. I’ve been binge watching on Amazon prime. I’ve also been way over emotional. I think I’m going to blame the hormones on this…

This blows…

I can’t stand feeling like this! Hopefully I’m feeling a little more “normal” and back to my good ol’ self this next week. One can only hope I guess.

Bleh.

Eh, that’s all I have for right now.

Happy Friday, hopefully everyone is doing good.

-A

(hehehe that did make me chuckle a little…)

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I, Aubrie, am a dork.

Guys… I need help. PAAHAHAHAHAA.

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Give me a minute as I walk away laughing hysterically at myself…

Okay I’m back now. I hope you all are having a terrific Tuesday! I surely am! It’s a day off for me, so I’m staying in my pjs, cuddling up on the couch with my fur babies, and binging the crap out of Netflix. Laziness. That’s the word I’m defining today. We all have them. It’s fine to have them… in moderation.

It’s 12:30 here now, and I already feel the need to get up and move. I may have to go out and do errands, so if I get dressed, I’ll probably get into my workout clothes when I get home and do something for awhile.

I’ve also been putting of cooking my pork chops I got at the grocery store last week. I should really cook those today since I’ll be home for dinner… and since I’m just sitting here really doing absolutely nothing, I should look for a recipe.

Anyone have any good pork chop recipes?

Thank you Lord!

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So today was my weigh-in day… I gained 2.6 lbs.

I am in no way, shape or form angry about that though, and I will talk about why in a bit…

If you read my post Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award, I had mentioned that I have PCOS. I really haven’t told all that many people that I have it. When I was 18, I went to see my dr. because I noticed I wasn’t getting my period. Unlike everyone else, I would go 5-6 months without ever getting it. At the time, I didn’t think it was all that terrible… I mean, I didn’t have to worry about cramps or anything that comes with having your period. When my mom told me I should really get checked out, I was a little scared… I didn’t know what to expect or what my doctor would even tell me.

When the doctor told me that I have PCOS I didn’t even know what to say. I felt like that little room was getting smaller and smaller by the minute. I remember her saying that my weight wasn’t helping the issue, and that it would be extremely difficult to ever have children. I tried with every fiber in my body not to start crying right there. I didn’t want to be told all this at only 18 years old. My adult life was just barely beginning. I didn’t want this to be in the back of my head…

I grew up dreaming one day of being a mom. I’ve always wanted kids, even when I was a kid myself. I loved playing house, and I loved being the “mom”. I remember thinking about what I would name my future kids when I was younger as well; Norah and Clark. (Clark as in Clark Kent of course!!) When you’re told though that it will be hard for you to ever have kids though… those dreams you once lived for, start to fizzle and fade away. I started looking at my families history with children and it doesn’t help with how I felt either. It took my parents, YEARS to have me. I hear all the time on how long and hard it took for my parents to have me… I only have two cousins, one of them being adopted.

The news about PCOS really didn’t hit me until a couple days after she told me. I remember just sitting there feeling so ashamed that my body was doing this to me. Why couldn’t I be “normal” and just be like my friends. Why couldn’t I just get my period like the billions of other women in the world? Why was I gaining all this weight, even while I was working out? Why was I noticing a ton of extra facial hair on my face and chin? Why, why, why?

I can’t say that even today I fully understand why God gave me PCOS, but I’ve learned not to dwell on it, or feel bad about it. I have PCOS. I have to work harder at working out than a normal person. I have to watch what I eat more than a normal person. I have to occasionally use the magic touch to my face so I don’t look like a man (btw best thing ever! It’s that little razor thing that is occasionally on TV every once in awhile… Love it!). It’s just what I have to do. No sense in complaining, because that won’t get me anywhere and it certainly won’t make me feel any better. I’ve been lucky in the fact that I’ve been single my whole life so I don’t have the thought of kids always poking at my brain… (By lucky, I don’t mean I’m lucky… I am always looking for Mr. Right!)

If you haven’t seen My Fat and Fabulous Life,strongly encourage you to take at least a half hour out of your day and watch it. There were so many times while watching, I started crying because of how much my own personal life resembled hers. It really is a fabulous show! 🙂

Okay okay, finally onto why I’m not at all angry at the weight gain and why my post is so thankful to God!

After not having my period for over 3.5 months….

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It came today!!

I know I know, you probably didn’t want to know this, BUT! I’m happy because I didn’t have to take Provera in order to get it. I hate taking Provera. I always get the side effects… Insane acne, even MORE hair growth, and I get super depressed. I hate it. I absolutely hate it. When I went in for my physical last week, my doctor said that if I didn’t get it within a week though that I would have to take the Provera. Well, my body must have been listening!!! So that brings me to the weight gain, I know what it’s from so I know it was nothing that I did or didn’t do. 🙂

Hopefully I didn’t overshare… if I did, sorry, just wanted to get my little story out there. If anything, if at least one person who is reading this and has been scared or ashamed and feeling down about having PCOS, finally sees they aren’t alone and they shouldn’t feel ashamed because it’s not their fault, that’s what I was aiming to do. For the longest time, I felt that way, and it’s not a fun way to live.

Thanks so much for reading!

Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award!

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I was honored to receive my first nomination for an award from the lovely Jennifer at Cook It Slim. I would first like to start off saying a big “Thank You!” to Jennifer.  If you haven’t come across her blog yet, I DEFINITELY recommend going on over and following her. She has some delicious gluten free recipes as well!!!

I love knowing that someone out there is reading this blog and is getting enjoyment, encouragement, and motivation. That’s why I started a blog to begin with. I wanted an outlet where I could say my feelings, and help others, even in the smallest of ways along the way. I also love the little community we have here. Most of us here share a common end goal; weight-loss. It’s always nice knowing you aren’t alone, and by receiving this nomination, I can see I’m not and that I’m surrounded by a great bunch of individuals!

  As a part of accepting this award,
Jennifer has sent me a list of questions to respond to.
My Q & A portion is below:

In one word, how would you like your readers to describe your blog?

Motivating.

I could use a lot of words that I’d want readers to describe my blog, but I chose this one out of the others, because everyone needs a little motivation. There are days, sometimes more than others, where I lack motivation. The wonderful thing about the blogging community is that the minute I come on and read some blogs, it’s like a light switch gets flicked and I find all that motivation that was hiding. That’s exactly why I want to return that favor and have a motivating blog as well. I want to in return, be that blog that helps someone who has lost their motivation or is just having an off day. Whether its a post about working out, one of my favorite recipes, or about a bad day I’ve had. Just reading that someone else is feeling the same way as you is very reassuring!

Which is your most favorite among your blog posts? Why?

I honestly really can’t pick just one of my most favorite blog posts. I take pride in every single post I make. Every post comes from my inner self. Others, take my recipes, come from a place where I haven’t been that long. I grew up with a mom and grandma who LOVED cooking and baking. As a kid though, I never wanted to learn what they were doing. Grown up and an adult and not really knowing how to cook now, stinks! So by doing the recipe posts, I try to pick things that are easy enough for even the beginner chefs out there like me.

What/Who inspires most of your blog posts?

I would have to say my own passion to conquer my weight problems. Yes, I find inspiration on all the blogs I follow, but the passion I have to continue down my road to weight-loss is from my own self. I know I have a very long way to go yet, but I know one day, I will reach my goal.

What do you aspire to accomplish this year?

I was talking about this nomination with my friend, and I made the joke to lose at least 1 pound. I don’t go around talking about this (and I will go into full details in another post either today or tomorrow), but I have PCOS. Losing weight, especially within the last couple years, has been extremely hard for me. When I started WW last year in January, my first week I lost 9 lbs. I thought it would be the easiest thing ever to lose weight! After the first couple of weeks though, I just lost less and less. Going back to the question though, what I’m aspiring to do this year, is to lose weight, doesn’t matter what number, just as long as I actually lose weight.

What do you aspire to learn this year?

I want to learn how to eat even healthier this year. I know I still have a long ways to go before I’m eating a healthy meal every meal.

What is your most favorite book? Why?

Oh boy, I definitely do not have a favorite book. I love reading!!! I can’t just pick only one.

What’s the most courageous thing you’ve ever done?

While thinking of an answer to this question, I am realizing that I don’t get and go out of my comfort zone that much. There, I have another thing to accomplish this year… to do more things out of my comfort zone!

To fully answer this question though, I guess the one thing that pops out of my head would be the summer before I started High School, I was in an organization called People to People. I am an only child, and at that time, I was only 14, I had never been away from my parents for more than a week or two, let alone not even in the same state. So you must be wondering, where did I go? Well, I got to travel to Australia and New Zealand with a bunch of other kids from around the state. To make matters even a little scarier, I was the only one from my whole town to go, so I was definitely out of my comfort zone a little. I am so proud of myself though for going. It was a once in a lifetime experience, and I’m forever grateful that my parents had the means and allowed me to go!

If you can be a superhero, what is your super power?

What superhero powers would I choose… This is actually a hard question! I’m a huuuuge Superman fan, so I would definitely choose flying! How cool would it be to just fly anywhere in the world? That would be an awesome dream man…

Who is your female role model?

I have quite a few female role models… My best friend, my mom, my godmother, my grandma… All the women listed are all women who have helped me become the person I am today. They all have generous and wonderful hearts. I can only hope to be as wonderful of a woman, mom, friend, and person as each of these lovely ladies have been to me!

Now, for other nominees, this is what you do:

  • thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site
  • put the award logo on your blog
  • answer the ten questions sent to you (the same questions above)
  • nominate seven blogs

My Seven Nominees:

  1. Being Happy
  2. Candidly Carol
  3. Destination Slim
  4. My Journey–One Day at a Time
  5. Lioness Lives
  6. Fat Chick Loses
  7. Amber Says Hello

It was extremely hard only choosing seven nominees! I had fun sitting down and thinking about each question, and again, I feel so honored to have been nominated myself. 🙂

It’s been a good day.

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It’s been a relaxing Friday. I had the day off (yay!) so of course my mother wakes me up to ask me about countertop edging before 7am. Parents.

After running up and down the stairs about 6 times when a lady came to pick up a cookie order, I relaxed on the couch. I got to watch The Young and the Restless today too! (I think Kelly is really the crazy one… well Phyllis is too…) Man… my morning by the sounds of it was super boring… but it was relaxing and I very much enjoyed it.

After lunch, I took Napoleon to the dog park. He doesn’t get alone time much anymore since Mozzie came along, so I think he really enjoyed it. It was so beautiful out today! It was nice to be outside in the sunshine! Plus the awesome thing about our dog park is, it’s just a big walking area around trees all around a lake that used to be the “swimming place” way back when my parents were kids. So besides Napoleon getting to run around, I also got to walk! I got in over 6K steps! whoohoo! I didn’t go super fast, but it was walking in snow… so, I’m happy with the speed I did go. I, of course, took some pictures…

Once we were done at the dog park, I came home and fiddled around on the computer while I watched Dr. Phil. Holy cowabunga… that was an intense hour.

Thank God Ellen is on after Dr. Phil! It was some much needed laughter after that episode. While we watched Ellen, my godmother, Sarah, my mom, and I opened our Christmas gifts. I was SUPER happy with what I got!

What I’m most excited about is… STACY IS BACK!!!! The premier of Love Lust or Run was on tonight 🙂 I can already tell I’m going to love this show! I am a super fan of Stacy London. She, to me, is just an awesome and genuine lady! I find myself not having much of a style, so I would take a makeover from her any day!!!


This all leaves me to right now… I’m cleaning my tornado stricken of a room because I have plans tomorrow, and I just need to get it cleaned. Tomorrow, my friend from high school, Nicole, is home for the weekend from up north, so we, along with Trisha (my second mother), are going to hang out up in my work neighborhood until I work at 4. We have lots planned already. We are going to hit up Breadsmith (best stuff ever… Oh they have the best pretzels… Carb overload…), the Starbucks or Caribou that are right next door, and then head on over to Wuollet Bakery. Seriously, I’m going to have to workout so much tomorrow before AND after work… it’s so worth it to me though!   I’m super excited for some delicious goodies!!!

Better get to cleaning… Ugh.