Nature is truly beautiful.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
Psalm 23:2-3

Nature. I’ve always been such a fan of nature. I guess you could call me a tree lover. I love trees. I’m obsessed with trees. My room and bathroom is dedicated to trees. I even have a tree tattoo. I’m also a plant and flower lover as well. Put me in front of some flowers, and I’m a happy camper! I also have a flower tattoo!

This past week, I was insanely busy. Between working, babysitting, and spending the weekend with my friends, I felt like I was torn and thrown all over the place. Ever since it started getting nice out, I feel like I haven’t been able to enjoy it much. I’ve at least gotten to notice the leaves growing on the trees.

Two weekends ago, I was able to get outside and take some shots of our neighbors beautiful Magnolia trees. Being out there taking the pictures, I felt such a wash of happiness flow over me. I really can’t describe the feeling, other than I was at total and utter peace. I love spring. It’s a time of new beginnings. New babies being born, new flowers and plants being planted, new leaves growing on old trees that have been here for hundreds of years.

The flowers are sadly falling off the tree; only a few remain. The ones left are turning brown, and will fall off in a couple days. The memory and promise of them coming back year after year, that will never fade.

I hope these pictures bring some form of happiness to you as they have done to me. I know it’s not like looking, feeling and even smelling the real thing, but it’s still the thought of it being out there.

Let the heavens rejoice, let the earth be glad;
    let the sea resound, and all that is in it.
 Let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them;
    let all the trees of the forest sing for joy.
Psalm 96:11-12
*all photos taken and edited by me with Nikon D3300

Stay fabulous my friends!

Hold You In My Arms.

I know I’ve said it before, but I just am in love with Ray LaMontagne’s wonderful sounding voice. Ahhhhh 🙂

OOOOOkay so today was Monday, right? It felt more along the lines of a Tuesday to me, just because I had to work yesterday/last night/into the wee early mornings of today.

This past weekend was one of the best in a long time. I went to my best friends house and hung out with her kids, her sister and our other bestie. It was a weekend full of laughs and also not-so-good-for-you foods. Do I regret any of it?

NO!

Something else I did this weekend? Oh yeah, I chopped off my hair, got it much lighter, and added blue! YES BLUE! 😀 I am completely in love with it. I feel like I’m finally living a little out of my shell… like I’ve been able to let a part of me free that’s been hidden.

Hmm… what else happened?… Oh yes! So I sent a return out to Jawbone, so I could send the Jawbones back. I got emails today saying that I had to call them. Ugh… they’re going to try to guilt me into keeping them… but I can’t because… I’m getting a Fitbit Charge HR. I can’t believe I’m actually getting it now… after all the fuss of it before… I’m actually buying the damn thing. If it doesn’t work this time around, I’m giving up completely with a fitness tracker and just using the app on my phone. Since I’m getting the Fitbit (whenever it decides to grace us with it’s presence), I downloaded the app onto my phone, to keep track of steps wise for the time being. I’m pretty impressed with the app, so I’m really looking forward to getting my actual Fitbit! Who all has a fitbit account and wants to be pals?

Here’s my progress today! I’m happy with it 🙂

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Alrighty, that’s enough for tonight I think. I’m pretty tired and worn out from this weekend yet.

Stay fabulous my friends!

Technology sucks.

So, I think I’m returning my Jawbone UP2.

I know what you’re thinking…

You just got it didn’t you?!
You said you loved it, didn’t you?!

Yes, I did just get it and yes, I did love it. (keyword did)

So why are you returning it then?!?!

Well, here are the 3 main reasons…

  1. It’s not syncing up to the app on my phone anymore. I feel like my steps aren’t counted accurately, and it takes forever for it to get “recognized”.
  2. The app keeps crashing on my phone. I go to open it, it crashes. I finally open it, and go to look at steps, it crashes. I close it completely and reopen it, it works for about 2 minutes, then it crashes. I’ve uninstalled and then reinstalled the app, it still crashes. I’m getting frustrated, and since I’ve only had the thing for a total of 3 days, it’s not worth it.
  3. My sleep is not being tracked. For the past two days, my sleep has not been tracked… even though I’ve hit the damn button on my phone AND on the actual Jawbone. Again, I’m so frustrated! This was one of the huge draws to me; to see how I’m sleeping. Now I know it can’t be 100% accurate, but it’s not even 1% accurate at the moment. So like I said earlier… not worth it.

So where does this leave me now…

I’m looking into a Fitbit again. UGH I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. After all the trouble I had before ordering and waiting for that damn thing… but I figure I’ll give it one more shot… I’m hoping I can fit into a Large… I was on the very outskirts of it on the size guideline… I don’t want to have to get an XLarge… I think that will be pretty pointless… It’ll just be too big after awhile and then what, I’ll have to buy a brand new one? No Thanks.

I’m at my best friends house this weekend, so I will have to look into sending my Jawbone back and ordering my new thing (whatever I finally decide) once I get home tomorrow.

Pleh. Technology sucks!

Stay fabulous my friends!

Yippy!

Yay! I got my Jawbone UP2 yesterday! I was actually super surprised at when it came… normally I never get packages before 4pm. I went to Sam’s Club around 10:30am and when I came home at 2pm, it was sitting by my door! Way to go UPS!

IMG_1339and I’m already loving it!!!! After a week of wearing it, I’ll give a little review of how much I like it and use it! So… stay tuned!


Well, that’s all I have at the moment. I guess it’s a slow news day for me.

Stay fabulous my friends!

Finally… The sun!

It’s been a cold past few days here, yesterday it even snowed. YUCK! It’s still kinda chilly, due to the insane wind, and I guess we’re supposed to have more showers/snow mix on Friday. Seriously, can it be just summer already?!


So, I wanted to throw out an update…

I ended up canceling my Weight Watchers account. In the end it came down to cost. I wasn’t using it as much as I wanted, and I didn’t want to waste the $20 a month if I wasn’t using it.

I’m not quitting though! Right after I cancelled my subscription, I downloaded the Jawbone Up app and also the My Fitness Pal app. Right after I did all that, I went to the Jawbone website and purchased the UP2! I’m so excited to get it! Just checked the tracker, and it says I’ll be getting it today!!! Crossing my fingers that it actually comes today, but if not, I’ll get it tomorrow. Can’t wait; so excited!


I just want to say “Thank You” to the people who continue to read my blog and help me along this journey. Your kind words and awesome feedback really motivate me to keep on going!


I found this…

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Well, I think that’s it for now…

Have a wonderful day my blogging friends!

I need help and advice…

So lately I’ve been reconsidering staying on Weight Watchers. For the past I don’t even know how many months, I’ve been paying the $20 a month and not even remotely using the website or app. If I’m going to be really honest and “be real” with you, I really haven’t even been eating healthy. I’m at a point now where I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to continue to waste money, but I would love to find something out there that resembles the ease of WW Online without having to pay so much. I looked into Lose It! (per Katrina) and it looks like it would be easy enough to use, I would just have to switch to actually counting calories rather than “points”, so that’s always something to further look into. I know there’s also My Fitness App out there, but I tried that once and got so dang confused. Maybe I just didn’t give it a good enough try.

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I’ve also been looking into purchasing the Jawbone Up2 that recently came out. It’s MUCH cheaper than the Fitbit HR I was wanting before, (you can read about that fiasco here in case you missed that post…) and it looks like it has pretty much the same specs as the Fitbit, minus the heart rate function. Its come to the point where I need something along the lines of a health tracker. I was trying to use apps on my phone, but I always set my phone down, and forget to pick it up, and end up walking somewhere and it doesn’t get tracked, or my phone completely dies and I’m SOL in that case as well. So, does anyone here use Jawbone products? Do you happen to have the Jawbone Up2 already and could give me some reviews?

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Is it possible to stress that I’m stressing out? Does that makes any sense?! I’m mad at myself for not working better at losing weight. I’m mad that I make excuses all the time. I’m frustrated that I am still the size I am, and that it’s getting warm out and I don’t want to wear anything but sweatshirts because when I wear sweatshirts I can hide behind my clothes. I’m pissed at myself because I think about when I started this journey and how I could actually look right now if I wouldn’t have stopped and made excuses, I wouldn’t look or feel like this. Ugh. Being fat sucks. Being lazy sucks. 

Alright, my openly rant and whine session is done now (hopefully). Needed to get some stuff off my chest. Thanks for listening!

What a beautiful spring day!

We were lucky to have another glorious spring day here in the land of 10,000 lakes. The sun was shining down, a slight breeze blowing, and I was feeling so great being outside soaking up every minute of it. There are mutliple trails by my house, but since it was lunch time, and super nice out, I decided that I would go the way with all the hills. I have come to the sad realization that I  have lost whatever shape I was in last fall. I was already huffin’ and puffin’ by the time I got up the first hill. (Okay and by hills I mean those gradual hills… not like mountain hills…) I never stopped though, I kept up with the momentum I had and kept on walking. I then started to walk past the middle school that’s just a few blocks from my house, and there was a class going to take a nature walk in the wooded area the middle school owns. As I was walking, I glanced up at a few of them walking and smiled. It’s a beautiful day and I was in a wonderful mood! After having the winter we had and then it’s been raining (and it snowed a couple days) this past week, how can you be anything but happy! Well, the looks I got in return were anything but “nice”. I got looked at up and down, a few looked at me then looked at their friend(s) then looked back at me and started laughing, and others who just wouldn’t even make eye contact period. I know I shouldn’t let any of that bother me because frankly, they’re kids who are stuck in school while I got to enjoy a walk on a beautiful day. So hah! About a mile after that, I happened to pass two teenage looking girls walking a dog. I again, got looked at like, “ugh gross”. I know none of this should bother me but it does. Why do people have to secretly or even openly shame others for trying to better themselves. I’m out trying to be a healthier version of myself… No one should have to get looked at funny or have others laugh or talk about the way you look. Again though, did any of that stop me? Hell no! I turned up my music a little louder and walked a little faster. It’s not my best time in the world, but the only thing that matters to me right now is that I got up and got outside and exercised. 🙂

Restart number 583,492,310.

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though that road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime
But somehow I’ll see it through
And I won’t look back
I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track
No I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope
But I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete.

Every time I hear this song, I just break down into tears. It’s an emotional song for me. As the title of this post is, I’m restarting… again. Losing weight is so difficult for me. I’m so tired of “starting over” but I need to keep picking myself up and not give up. Some days I wake up with the courage of this journey, while other days, I definitely feel defeated and feel like just throwing in the towel. So, when I hear this song I have both a motivating/depressing feeling. Motivating because I KNOW I can overcome this, but depressing because I keep letting myself down by feeling like giving up. Some days it truly does feel like it will “take a lifetime”, but what I need to keep telling myself is that “somehow I’ll see it through.”

Last night I was asked to be a bridesmaid for a friend I’ve known practically my whole life. The first thing I really thought about after getting asked was… I will not look like this next year for her wedding.

So right here and right now, I’m making a promise to myself, that I will keep going on this journey of mine, even if I stumble and fall off, even if it takes me a lifetime, I will never give up on myself. “No I won’t accept defeat. It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope till I go the distance and my journey is complete.”