This past weekend, I had some hurtful words thrown at me that I just can’t shake off.
Why don’t you just go kill yourself.
I don’t think this person meant it, but honestly I don’t think I really know this person at all. I really can’t wrap my head around why people say the things they say. I know we all say things we don’t mean in the heat of the moment, but there’s some things that just should never be said.
This was said a couple days ago, but like I said, it’s just really sticking with me. I was in a dark period in high school after my grandparents died. I was depressed about their passing, depressed about my weight, I felt like no one understood me, and just felt so alone. There were days I thought, what would it be like if I just wasn’t here anymore? I’m telling you, it was a very dark time for me. Luckily, I got through it. Hearing those words again though, just rattled me to my core. Yes, I got through it, but there’s others who don’t. Others who live with the feelings of, “well maybe I just should leave and not come back”. They have these feelings all day every day. I think that’s what bothers me most… This person could have said it to someone who is truly hurting inside.
I’ve had a family member contemplate suicide. Thinking that if someone would have said that to them and they actually had gone through with it, jokingly or not… Makes me upset.
Suicide is not a joke.
It’s not something to be taken lightly.
Suicide is not a laughing matter.
Please, if you are hurting and are contemplating suicide and need someone to listen or talk to, please get help. Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255). * I do not work for National Suicide Prevention Lifeline*
Don’t let people who say nasty things, take away the fire in your beautiful soul. You are loved, even if you feel like you’re all alone. You truly do matter.