Stepping out of my comfort zone.

Well guys… I stepped out of my comfort zone this evening.

I signed up and am now a member at Anytime Fitness.

It’s crazy to me that I did this. For starters, I’ve said for the longest time that I wasn’t going to ever go back to a gym because I have a Treadclimber and an actual weight machine in my basement. When I went yesterday though to the gym… I just really wanted to be apart of that gym. I loved the equipment and I felt a wave of motivation. Now though that I’ve done this, I’m so extremely nervous! I’ve gotten so many nice and encouraging words though from friends that is calming the nerves and allowing my excited feelings come out on top.

I’m debating on going tonight or just waiting until tomorrow… hmmm…


I just wanna sleeeeeep!

I am so incredibly tired right now and it’s not even 8:15p yet. I’m going to bed very shortly so this won’t be a long post at all.

So today was amazeballs! I went to the gym with a really great friend this morning and spent a good hour and a half or so there. The time went by SUPER fast which is honestly so crazy because hello… it’s the gym! I got my butt on the eliptical for a good half hour burned 250 calories, then went up stairs and she showed me how to do the TRX. Man, honestly, that’s all I can think of now… Like I wanna go back and do more of that! After she showed me some ways to use it, we walked back down and we did 30 minutes on the bikes and just “girl talked”. It was so nice to sit and catch up with her!

After we finished working out, we went and had brunch. Don’t even say it… I know what you’re thinking… brunch after you just worked out? yep… yes we did.

Next came pumpkin carving!!! Nicole came over and we did some carving along with Sarah and her 6 friends, and then my mom and Connie. I absolutely LOVE this time of year. I love fall and I love halloween. Ever since I was a young kid, my family has always carved pumpkins, so it was awesome getting to show the younger kids how to carve the way we do. What I just can’t get over is the, “hey Aubrie, did I do this right?” or “Aubrie, did I gut this pumpkin good enough or should I keep gutting it some more?”. I was very taken a back some of the times I was asked because I still think of myself as a teen… I don’t think of myself as “the adult”… So it was cool yet sad at the same time.

Well, that brings me all to now… I just took an insanely long and hot shower, and am now getting ready for bed so I can get up at 4am to be to work by 6am. Ugh… 3pm can’t come soon enough!!

Good night!


Last Man Standing.

I really couldn’t think of a subject line… so I put what I’m watching. This show is a hoot!

So I’m going to really try and type out something every single day. Even if it’s just a couple sentences. So here we go…

So today was “old habits” day. Old habits really do die hard don’t they. It started off fine… My two aunts came by my house to visit my fur babies. After they left, I went to the farmer’s market to “help” my mom. It was extremely freaking cold here today, so it ended up being absolutely dead there. What did I do then? I ate two of her cupcakes. I’m such a sucker to her baked goods. Especially those cupcakes! Didn’t help I didn’t eat breakfast though either. When you don’t eat breakfast, it messes with your whole day! After markets on Saturday we all normally then go out to eat somewhere. Since we don’t have very many sit down restaurants here in town, we chose Joe’s. I would like to say that I’m pretty proud of how much I did end up eating though. I got the Focaccia Grilled Cheese with french fries and then I added on the salad bar. I think what probably got me was the 3 cups of Taco soup I had… Oh it was so good and especially great after being out in the cold! I had a pretty good sized salad, and then only ate half of my sandwich and fries! Normally I would have gotten multiple cups of soup, had multiple trips to the salad bar, eaten my whole sandwich and fries, and then would have been thinking, “Hmm… there’s pudding up at the salad bar. I’m gonna get some!!” After it was all said and done though, I was extremely stuffed and was stuffed even until dinner time, so I skipped it. That wasn’t the brightest idea either, because around 7:30p, I started getting a little hungry, but for sour cream and onion ruffles. So, I ate some, not a whole lot, but still I had enough. Then, to top everything off for the end of the night… at 11:00p, I devoured two more cupcakes. UGH! Lesson is definitely learned though now.

My new plan of action…

  2. Always eat breakfast. No excuses, and they can’t be cupcakes!
  3. If I go out, I’m going to start asking for a to-go box right away, and put half of it in there so I don’t eat the whole thing.
  4. Eat dinner around the same time every day. This may be a little hard just do to the fact that I have such crazy hours at work that are never the same every day.
  5. Don’t eat after 10pm. I really think I can do this one! If I’m already going to start eating dinner around the same time every day, if I’m at work, I’ll start bringing a dinner, and then I won’t be coming home late and wanting to eat dinner or snacks.

I think this is a good start of an action plan. I think I can do it!

I’m really looking forward to tomorrow! Starting off my morning by going to a gym with Nicole, then we’re going to brunch, and then I’m coming home and we’re (along with my mom, godmother, Sarah and then her handful of friends), are going to carve pumpkins!!! I am SO FREAKIN’ EXCITED!!!! It’s going to be an awesome Sunday Funday! I’ll tell you more about it tomorrow!

Thanks for listening!


Full of Emotions.

So have you heard Adele’s new single, Hello? If not, here listen to it now…

So the minute it started playing I fell in love. The second time however, when I really started listening to the lyrics… I started to cry. This song, for me at least, doesn’t tell the story of an ex. For me, it’s like a conversation with myself from either the past or the person I’d thought I’d be but still am not. (again this is just how I’m interpreting it… so don’t judge!)

Hello – Adele

Hello? It’s me.
I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet.
To go over, everything.
They say that times supposed to heal you but I ain’t done much healing.
Hello? Can you hear me?
I’m in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger, and free.
I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet.
There’s such a difference between us,
And a million miles.
Hello from the other side.
I must have called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done
But when I called, you never seem to be home.
Hello from the outside.
At least I can say that I tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart
But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore.
Hello? How are you?
It’s so typical of me to talk about myself, I’m sorry.
I hope, that you’re well.
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened.
It’s no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time.
So, hello from the other side.
I must have called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done.
But when I called, you never seem to be home.
Hello from the outside.
At least I can say that I tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart.
But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore.

When I was a kid and teen, I pictured my life would be totally different than what it is right now. I thought I’d be married and have kids by now. Thought I would be making more money than the pennies I make now. I pictured myself fit and healthy and definitely not the size I am today. Every once in awhile, I see that person I wanted to be in my head. I wonder where she ever went. Why she got moved to the back burner. I remember how when we’re kids, the world is such a big and exciting place. We didn’t have the worries of adults, only the dreams of our wild imaginations. Sadly though, when we grow up, a lot of us lose sight of the things we used to dream about. Life gets in the way, and we start to lose faith in ourselves. I know this because I’ve lost faith in myself so many times. Then, when you think you find just a small part of your once huge dream, it’s like you can’t get through to it or grasp it, and it slowly fades away again.

This song perfectly describes the conversation I’d have with her.

So, thanks Adele for this song. It’s made me see those dreams I used to have. It makes me want to grab on tight and not let go… I want it to matter, because it does matter.

Italian Eggplant Melts

Italian Eggplant Melts

  • Servings: 4
  • Difficulty: easy
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Found from Hungry-Girl 1-2-3
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  • 4 – 3/4″ thick eggplant slices
  • 2 tsp Worcestershire Sauce
  • 1/8 tsp black pepper
  • 4 sandwich thins
  • 4 slices red onion, rings intact
  • 4 slices reduced fat provolone or swiss cheese
  • 1 cup baby spinach or kale leaves (I used Kale)
  • 4 large slices tomato
  • 4 tsp Hellmann’s Dijonnaise


Lay eggplant slices on a plate. Drizzle with Worcestershire sauce and sprinkle with pepper. Bring a skillet to medium heat. Place eggplant in pan, cover, and cook for 5 minutes. Flip eggplant and cook additional 5 minutes. Split sandwich thins in half and place halves on grill, along with onion slices. Cook uncovered for 2 minutes, or until both sides of sandwich thins are toasted. Once toasted, remove buns and flip onion. Continue cooking veggies for 2 minutes. Top each eggplant slice with a slice of cheese, cover, and cook until melted. When finished, top the bottom half of each bun with cheesy eggplant slice. Evenly top eggplant slices with spinach (or kale), tomato, and onion. (For the kale, I put it in the pan for a 30 seconds or so to get it warm and soft and not so firm.) Spread 1 tsp Dijonnaise on top half of each sandwich thin. Enjoy!


SERVING SIZE = 1 sandwich

I’m back… well hopefully that is.

I only had two blog posts in September, say what!? I can’t believe it was only two… Then again I kinda can. :/

I sadly have not had anything to really write or talk about lately. I’m stuck in a really dark rut. I was, for a while, eating extremely poorly and not getting more than 5k steps a day.  I wish I could go into full disclosure about what is putting me in this sad feeling place, but sadly I can’t.

I know for sure that I’ve posted on the topic of “wishing my life was different”. A lot of days recently I wished just that again. It’s a sad place to be in when you would rather be anything or anyone else.

Life is hard. You’re going to run into obstacles. There will be bumps in the road that sometimes feel like mountains. You will fall flat on your ass and sometimes may be trampled by the hooves of life. it won’t keep you down. You will get back up and dust yourself off. You are strong. You won’t give up. You can’t give up. You just have to deal with it and move past it.

Man, if I can come up with that… why can’t I actually use that for myself? It’s definitely easier to tell someone else this and motivate them, rather than yourself. Motivation, that’s a tricky thing some days. There are days where I have it exploding out of me, and others I can’t even find a shot glass full.

Luckily though, I found some and I shoved it in my back pocket. 🙂

So this is to you, the person who reads this, even if its no one but myself, when I need to find some encouraging words in the future…

If you get sidetracked, maybe for the billionth time, it doesn’t matter. The thing that matters most is that you keep going. Don’t worry about what people will think or say about your restarting. The ones who really matter will be there every step of the way; when you fall on your face and when you get right back up. You can do it. Even if it takes you the rest of your life. You can do this. You’re not alone… I’m here!


Spaghetti Squash and Turkey Sausage Bake.

Spaghetti Squash and Turkey Sausage Bake

  • Servings: 8
  • Difficulty: easy
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  • 1 large Spaghetti Squash
  • 10oz. Jennie O Turkey Breakfast Sausage
  • 1 cup fat free chicken broth
  • 1 cup skim milk
  • 4 cloves garlic, minced
  • 1/4 cup grated Parmesan Cheese
  • 2 Tbsp butter
  • 2 Tbsp whole wheat flour
  • 1 Tbsp dried ground sage
  • 2 tsp dried parsley
  • 1 cup Panko breadcrumbs
  • 1 cup mozzarella cheese, shredded
  • salt and pepper, to taste


Preheat oven to 400°. Cut spaghetti squash in half lengthwise. Fill a pan with 1/2″ of water and set squash face down. Place in oven for 1 hour or until squash is tender. (If you poke it with a fork and the fork can easily go in, it’s ready.) Remove from oven and let cool. While squash is cooling, cook the turkey sausage. Once the squash is cool, scrape with a fork to remove in long strands and place in a sprayed 9 x 13 pan. Add turkey sausage to spaghetti squash in pan. Melt butter over medium-high heat. Stir in flour. Slowly whisk in milk, broth, and garlic. Bring to a boil, whisking constantly. Lower heat, and stir in parmesan, sage, and parsley. Once mixed, pour sauce over squash and sausage and mix well. In a small dish, combine panko breadcrumbs and mozzarella cheese. Once combined, sprinkle on top. Bake 30 minutes and let cool for 5 minutes.

COOK TIME = 1 hour, 30 MINUTES