Let the countdown begin…

Less than 24 hours stands in between 2015 and 2016. I was asked on Instagram what I learned this year. This year really has been one in the record books. There were some firsts – first date, first day at a new job…  things I’m leaving behind – being a nanny, friendships… When I look back at this year in a whole, I’m proud that I’m still here standing tall. So many things happened this year emotionally and physically that if I hadn’t been strong enough to overcome, I don’t know exactly where I would have ended up. I’m still here though, and I’m still fighting. Listed below are the “3 Things 2015 Taught Me”:

  1. I need to lose weight for me and not so people will like me. When I first started this journey, I started because I was 24, single, and unhappy. I thought that the only way a guy would like me was if I was skinny and pretty. I started the year off by thinking I wasn’t good enough for anyone. It took me the whole year to realize… Fuck those guys who only care about the outside and not about what truly matters… The inside. I’m losing weight and getting healthy for ME. No one else. It’s such a huge relief to finally not fully care what people think. I mean, I can go to the gym with my head held high and see those “hot guys” there and not feel intimidated. (Well sometimes I do just a little but it’s only because they are extremely good looking… I am a girl after all!)

  2. I don’t have to be afraid of what people think or say if I stumble on this journey. Most importantly, I don’t have to be disappointed in myself if and when I stumble. When I started, I felt so guilty if I ever slipped up because “what are people going to think?” Or “why did I allow myself to do this?”I’ve said it once and I will continue to say it… I didn’t get this size over night. It’s gonna take a lot of effort and time. I’ve learned that, shit, I’ve fallen on my ass so many times and yet I STILL get up and continue on. I’ve seen so many people try their hardest and end up giving up. I will never give up.
  3.  There are so many other wonderful people out there going and feeling the exact same thing(s) as me! I’m so thankful each every day for my awesome and newfound family on Instagram and the blogs. Like I said in a previous post, I don’t know what I’d do without all of you. I’ve learned to open up and not be afraid of what I’m going through and dealing with. Posting my weight… that was a huge thing to overcome. I was always afraid of, “These people are going to see my weight… what if I know someone that see’s this?” That all went out the window after talking and getting to know everyone. We don’t need to feel ashamed or embarrassed. I saw a post on Instagram that said, “You are not fat. You have fat. You also have fingernails but you are not fingernails.” What an awesome message. 

2015

what a year. I’m ready to move on to 2016. I’m ready for a new year full of firsts. I’m ready for a fresh start. I’m ready for a brand new chapter.


 

I have a few little updates since I wrote yesterday…

  • So this happened…

Oh my body. So I went to the gym thinking, "I'm just going to start watching Coyote Ugly since Netflix is stupidly getting rid of it in January." Well… That turned into me watching the whole damn movie because I a.) love it so much and b.) I might as well actually DO something than just sit on my butt and watch it. My legs feel like jello right now though! I am definitely going to sleep oh so well tonight!!! I also listened to 20 minutes or so of one of my favorite playlists on the RockMyRun app. LOVE this playlist!!! It's so damn good! If you have the app… Totally take a listen. If you don't have the app… Get this app! It's FREE!!! #fitfam #fitness #gymtherapy #gymtime #weightwatchers #imbeat #keepmoving #treadmill #walking #coyoteugly #rockmyrun #gymstats #GoalDigger #fitgirls #wwfattitude #wwfam #cantgiveup #cantstopwontstop

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5 miles… whoa! If that’s not an accomplishment, I don’t know what is!

  • I FINALLY finished Moby Dick!!!!!!
  • I started and finished Freaky Friday, and then I started Who Moved My Cheese today and finished that as well! (If you haven’t ready Who Moved My Cheese yet… Oh you must! It’s a WONDERFUL read! It talks about the fear of change, and how some people react. It also talks about stepping out of your comfort zone in order for change to happen. Seriously… it’s such a good book!!!)

 

Well friends, I think that’s it really… for now.

Thanks to all of you who are still sticking by me.

Until next time…

Aubrie

 

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Last 2015 Weigh-In.

So today was the last official 2015 weigh in. Of course I just had to have gained. 

  
I keep telling myself not to stress about it, because at least it wasn’t higher of a gain. I mean, looking back to the past week, I ate a lot of junk! I stuffed myself to the brim with such wonderful food on Christmas! We had smoked turkey, pulled pork, prime rib, calico beans with bacon, cheesy hash brown casserole, scalloped potatoes with ham, green bean casserole, scalloped corn casserole, deviled eggs, wheat and white dinner rolls, and a great big veggie tray. We also had homemade Chex mix on top of that! Looking back… Holy food! We had so much! But it was so delicious! After we ate and played some games, it was of course time for dessert! There was cherry pie, blueberry pie, pumpkin pie, apple pie, blueberry marshmallow pie, cookies upon cookies and ice cream. I only had a sliver of cherry and blueberry, but I also ate my fair share of cookies. 

Honestly, how did I ONLY gain 1.3 pounds?! With all of that I should have gained more! When it was all said and done, I’m glad I didn’t restrict myself on Christmas. It made me realize that I really can’t continue to eat like that. I Rene bee when I first started Weight Watchers, I thought I would keel over because I was having to cut my portion sizes. After this Christmas, I realized that I now get full after the smallest of meals. So thanks Weight Watchers for helping me realize I can eat smaller meals and still be full. 

Well I think that’s it for today’s posting. I will continue the fight against obesity! 

Until next time… 

Aubrie

Hello.

I don’t know why blogging can be so easy some days and then bam! I never write again in over a month.

Life has been very hectic after I quit being a nanny and started my new job in November. I love writing on my blog, but I just haven’t found the time sadly. I’ve stayed in touch with my Instagram and Facebook friends, but haven’t really connected with my fellow bloggers. Sorry for that. I really don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have any of you (bloggers, instagramers, and facebookers) in my life! I rely on all of you so much!!


 

Anywho, enough of that mushy stuff…

Onto how I’ve been!

So as I stated above… I left my nanny family and started my new job in November. It’s been a month now since I started and I’m feeling very indifferent about the new change in my life.

I miss my nanny kiddos every single day. I still have days where I think to myself, “Did I make the right decision?” I then think about it more and know that it was my time to move on. The kids are growing up, and pretty soon, won’t need me anymore. I was already starting to get less and less hours during the week and getting majority of my hours on the weekend. I didn’t see my family, and wasn’t seeing my friends at all anymore. Plus, I was spending so much money on gas and time in the car. So that alone, makes me glad I found a job in my town and not an hour away. The new job has had it’s challenges. I’m by myself every day. I have a few customers that come in, or I see friends and people I know that I talk with, but I also have the rude and crabby people who yell and take out their frustrations on me as well. Boo retail. I never realized how some people can be just so rude to one another. Our stylist had a family member pass within this week, and when I would let the customers know why she wasn’t here, they made rude comments and honestly were just downright mean. I will never understand people like that. I have to remind myself more and more these days this… “At least you are in town… You only have a 10 minute commute rather than an hour. You’re not in your car as much, and you’re gaining customer service experience.” I mean, who wouldn’t love to change things about their jobs? I just gotta keep trucking and keep at it.


 

Eating and exercise wise, has been totally off though sadly. Ever since Thanksgiving, my mind has been checked out for eating healthy. My mind has been set to holiday food mode and has been insanely hard to switch back to weight watcher friendly mode. Luckily though, I haven’t made much gains! That’s always good!!!!! Health wise and gym wise… for about a month, I was dealing with intense dizzy spells, headaches, and stomach aches. I went to the Dr. and got tons of blood taken for analysis, but it all came back normal. I’m healthy at least! We are thinking it’s just a bad case of Vertigo. It’s gotten better in the past couple weeks, so I finally got back to the gym. It felt good being back. I went out and got new gym clothes (just sweatshirt pull overs and workout pants… how can I live in cold Minnesota and only have one pair of workout pants???)


 

Hmm… What else is there to update you about? Right now, I have no clue! OH!!!!! I know!!!

I am almost finished with Moby Dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you guys know how long it has taken me to read this damn book!?! Well over a flipping’ year! It’s taken me so long!! I have 40-something more pages! So I’m heading to the Library now to check out a new one to check off The Rory Gilmore Reading Challenge!


 

Alright friends… We are supposed to be getting a huge winter storm in the next couple hours so I gotta get up and moving to get my butt to the library!!!!

Talk to you all very soon…

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