Poison & Wine.

Hello, it’s been a long time.

Quite a long time indeed.

Where did I even leave the last post at? I can’t even remember… isn’t that sad?

Is anyone even out there any more? I wouldn’t be surprised if there isn’t. This is a posting for me anyways.

The main reason I’ve been away is…

I started college.

I actually went back.

After many, many years of hoping, dreaming and praying, I finally went back.

It’s been almost two months into the first semester and I have to tell myself each and every day that I can do it.

I don’t let on to people that I have these thoughts, but I do.

For the longest time I told myself I could do it, and now that I am, I’m afraid of failing.

There’s days, and most at that, I feel like just throwing in the towel. Just giving up.

But I don’t.

and I won’t.

I picture my grandparents with me, and I imagine they’re here with me every day. Every day telling me I can do this.

I’ve always wanted thisĀ and I need to keep going.

Keep at this.

Even when it’s hard and I want to give up.

Have you ever found yourself in my shoes?

I’m sure you have.

Everyone has rough days.

Everyone has days where they feel like giving up and throwing in the towel.

The thing is… We can’t ever give up though.

We can’t ever think we’re not enough.

We can’t ever think that we won’t succeed.

We can’t ever give in to our inner demons that scream at us to just give up.

Every day is a new day.

A new day to continue on.

A new day to make our dreams come true.