Ghost Notes.

It’s one of those nights where I’m listening to sad country songs and I can’t seem to stop being sad.

There is so many things flying around inside my brain… but I can’t catch a single thought. Every time I feel like I’m getting a strong hold, I lose grasp and it flies away.

I want my life to be different. In the past couple of weeks, I have sadly (yet again) gotten pissed at myself for not getting my shit together sooner in life.

I’m only 27, but there are so many times within a day where I have mini panic attacks and just think that I’ve wasted so much of my life already.

It’s so easy to say that you’re going to start doing something beneficial for yourself. It’s insanely hard to actually take it and actually DO something.

I mean, it took me how long to finally go back to college? Many, MANY years.

I have so many dreams for my future… but I feel like they’re unattainable. Why do I think that? Why are those thoughts even coming up? ANY DREAM is attainable.

My ultimate dream is to travel and teach all over. There are so many places that I want to see and live. Growing up, I always thought I’d be married, have kids, and be an amazing teacher by now. It actually hurts to even type that out.
(That’s all for a different posting though.)

Am I strong enough to go through with that dream? Only time can tell.

(This brings me to the point of why I’m listening to sad country music and being sad.)

I wish I was strong enough right now.

I wish I didn’t have to wait for a time in the future for me to be independent.

I wish I didn’t feel sad all the time.

I have far too many wishes. 

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I’m still here.

Oh my goodness gracious.

I’m still here. Barely some days, but overall I’m still alive and kicking.

Where has this beautiful life taken me so far? Well… I’ve made it through yet another insanely difficult semester of college. I’m officially not a “freshman” in college anymore. Can you believe it? I don’t really know if those titles are really considered when you’re attending a community college, but hey, I’m gonna go with it because well dang it, I can!

I decided about two weeks before the end of the semester that I was no longer going to take summer classes. I wanted a break. Scratch that, I NEEDED A BREAK.

With everything going on in my life right now, I needed to take a moment to breathe and catch up. I’m so incredibly glad I did because in the two weeks I’ve been done with school, I’ve gotten to sleep (HECK YES!), read two books (I started a third and then realized it was hitting too close to home so I decided to just return it), I’ve stepped foot into the library twice! (got new books today in fact!!!) and I’ve gotten to hang out with my best friend in the whole wide world! Telling you, I really needed this break.

What else is there to say really? Now that I’m off school and living the summer life, I’m hoping things get interesting in my life, but right now, I’m just enjoying the peacefulness of today.

Enjoy the rest of the week cyberspace.

-Aubrie.

Happy Anniversary!

So I just happened to click on wordpress instead of my online college course in the drop down menu and it brought me to the realization that today marks my two year anniversary of having a blog.

SAY WHAT?!

Has it really been two years already?! How has the time moved by that fast? Thirdly, how have I fallen that much off the wagon in the two years since I started?!

I look back every now and again as to what knowledge and advice I posted back then and man… I was in such a better place (health wise) than I am now. In that same breath though… I’m in a WAY better place emotionally and mentally though! So hey, I guess we can mark that as a success right?

Today was my last day of class for a month – Christmas Break!

I still can’t believe I’m FINALLY back in college. It’s all still somewhat of a dream. I checked my classes and I have an A in every one… INCLUDING Math. MATH. THATS RIGHT. MATH! I kind of want to send my old math teacher a Facebook message saying… not sure if you remember me, but I’m back in college and I actually did good in math class. I also kind of want to apologize for not taking it as seriously as I should have in high school. I worked my tail end off in this math class this semester. I really don’t think I’ve ever worked that hard… The last two Sunday’s I’ve spent over 14 hours working on Math. I’m just glad I have an A to show for it now!

Alright, well I think this concludes this posting for the night. My mind has been nothing much absolute mush today… I’m quite surprised I was even able to type this all out! I see a nice long and relaxed break in my future. (well as much as one can have… I still have to go to work full time 🙂 )

Until next time,

Aubrie.

Poison & Wine.

Hello, it’s been a long time.

Quite a long time indeed.

Where did I even leave the last post at? I can’t even remember… isn’t that sad?

Is anyone even out there any more? I wouldn’t be surprised if there isn’t. This is a posting for me anyways.

The main reason I’ve been away is…

I started college.

I actually went back.

After many, many years of hoping, dreaming and praying, I finally went back.

It’s been almost two months into the first semester and I have to tell myself each and every day that I can do it.

I don’t let on to people that I have these thoughts, but I do.

For the longest time I told myself I could do it, and now that I am, I’m afraid of failing.

There’s days, and most at that, I feel like just throwing in the towel. Just giving up.

But I don’t.

and I won’t.

I picture my grandparents with me, and I imagine they’re here with me every day. Every day telling me I can do this.

I’ve always wanted this and I need to keep going.

Keep at this.

Even when it’s hard and I want to give up.

Have you ever found yourself in my shoes?

I’m sure you have.

Everyone has rough days.

Everyone has days where they feel like giving up and throwing in the towel.

The thing is… We can’t ever give up though.

We can’t ever think we’re not enough.

We can’t ever think that we won’t succeed.

We can’t ever give in to our inner demons that scream at us to just give up.

Every day is a new day.

A new day to continue on.

A new day to make our dreams come true.

Yippy Skippy!


First off, I got the next badge on Fitbit! The 10lbs lost badge! What’s even better is that I’ve lost more than 10… I’ve hit -12! I started looking back at my weight graph on the weight watchers app, and I saw how that little line went up and down up and down all through the past couple of years. The thought of “man you need to step it up” never came to mind. Instead, the thought of “look at you! All of this and you still never give up,” was the first thing that popped in there.

Next thing I want to talk about was my night a couple nights ago. I decided to try on a shirt that Sarah got. It was definitely too big for her, so I thought hey, why not try it on. It was, however, no normal shirt. It was that spandex material that sucks it all in and makes you feel like a sausage. I never looked into a mirror, but I knew it wasn’t at all attractive. I walked out and asked how it looked. I could tell that she was just trying to be nice about it. I mean, she didn’t want to hurt my feelings by saying the wrong thing. My mom however said something that still is sticking with me today. It’s not the exact wording, it’s just the meaning behind it. “It’s too late for me to change my size, you’re still young at least.” It makes me sad that she, and quite frankly, a lot of people feel that way. You’re never too old to live a healthier life. There’s always time to make better choices with your body, mind, and soul. Yes, it does get harder as you grow up, but there’s never a point where you should just stop and not care anymore.

I remember when I made my first post. I remember looking through other blogs thinking, “man these people are doing so well! And look how much they’re losing… And it’s so fast! I bet I’m going to be just like that!” Losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle aren’t always happy. There’s tough roads, hard decisions, and honestly quite a few bad days. Days when all you want to do is lay in bed all day with a tub of ice cream because your day sucked. Days where all of your friends are going out to have a fun time, but you need to stay in because you don’t want to be tempted by food all night. I also learned that there’s no set time to lose all the weight. I’ve heard countless of times from blogs, doctors, and friends that the faster you lose, the faster and more you gain back. A friend of mine posted on Instagram a while back that she was going to continue to work on losing weight, but not letting weight loss define how she was going to live her life. It wasn’t until recently that I finally understood what she meant. We can’t go through life saying no to fun and exciting experiences! We only have one life to live. What’s the point in living if we have all of these rules and limits. Now, I’m not saying go out and eat junk food every night because you want to live and be happy. In the long run, I strongly doubt you will be happy. What I am saying is, if you get invited out with friends or family, don’t say no because there may be a possibility of straying off course. Go and have fun with your friends. Make good choices the week and day of until you get to where ever it is you’re going. Don’t limit your life to one way. I promise you’ll be more happy when you loosen the reins and enjoy life in its entirety.
Until next time,

Aubrie

Fear.

So remember in my last post I said that I had some exciting news?! Yeah, well that was…

I had a first date yesterday.
Whoa! Say what?! Yeah! Does anyone else feel so awkward towards first dates? My Fitbit said I was up to 130 beats! Holy moly! I was definitely feeling all kinds of nerves…

I was a little nervous to even write a blog post on this topic today… Fear. The fear of failing. The fear of putting yourself out there into the unknown. Along with being a total hypochondriac, I am also a worry full, anxiety stricken, over thinking individual. When anything happens in my life, I analyze the crap out of it. When I started my weight loss journey for example, I sat and figured out all the ways I could fail. I could let myself down. What happens if I give up? What will people think of me? Honestly those thoughts could go on forever and ever… They really bring a person down. Luckily, I got past all of that. I learned that I can do whatever I put my mind to. Yes, there will be bad days, weeks, and months, but I can’t give up and stop doing this. I can’t sit and think about what people think about me. I can’t sit and be sorry for myself when things don’t go exactly how I planned. If things would have gone to plan like I envisioned, I would be to my goal weight by now. Instead, I’ve started over a couple times and am at the 10lbs lost mark once again. Why aren’t I more excited about that? Is it that fear again coming in saying, “well you’re just gonna gain it back again… So why say anything at all?” I will not think that. I can not think that. I will not let myself not be happy for myself, because damn it, I’m still on this journey and there is no way I’m stopping now.

The whole going back to college was a whole other category in this wheel of fear. What’s going to happen if I go back? Will I be able to handle the work load? Will I even find a job in that field? I mean, I haven’t found much in the field I’m in now! What happens if I fail? I can not let this fear dictate my life. It needs to end. I can’t be afraid of my dreams. So I’m glad I put on my big girl panties and took that step and applied.

I feel that a lot of people in the world today have a lot more fear than before. Fear that cripples them from being the individuals they’re meant to be. Fear of failure. Fear of commitment. Fear of losing people they love. Fear of saying the wrong thing. Just all around fear.

I guess the fear that is here today for me is for something I have absolutely no expertise in. I know I’ve said in other blog posts that I want to find someone. I want to be happy. I want that dream wedding someday. I want to start a family someday. The fear that comes with dating people though is having to put yourself out there. I’ve put myself out there numerous times before. The sad thing is that after I say my feelings, I end up getting burned. So there is that fear again. Why do I want to open up to people, just to have it thrown back at me? Isn’t that the whole point of meeting new people though? Putting yourself out there so you can build on that information and create relationships? Why is it that I want to be happy with someone, but when the thought of “oh crap, I could be happy with this person, gotta run away now!” Comes to my head and I just want to throw in the towel and quit while I’m ahead? I don’t want to place the blame on people in my past, but it’s hard not to feel that I’m like this because of those past experiences. 

Life is scary. Bad stuff happens, but there is a lot of good that happens with that as well. We can’t let fear dictate how we live. We can’t be in constant fear of what might not even happen. As a friend said to me, “the worst part of putting yourself out there is heartbreak.” The other side of that is putting yourself out there and finding something truly worth all of the crazy overthinking; Happiness.

So from here on out, I’m going to just let whatever happens happen. I’m not going to over think or imagine outcomes. I’m going to live in the moment and be happy where I am right now. I’m not going to be afraid of the unknown. Anything can happen. I won’t let fear dictate my life or my happiness. 

Until next time,

Aubrie

Fly.

I am obsessed with Maddie & Tae and their cd, Start Here. This cd is always the first that’s played whenever I listen to music on my phone. If you haven’t heard of it… check it out! I especially can’t get enough of their song, Fly.

So keep on climbing, though the ground might shake
Just keep on reaching though the limb might break
We’ve come this far, don’t you be scared now
‘Cause you can learn to fly on the way down

 Such true and meaningful words. Even when things are rocky and seem like you won’t be able to overcome the obstacles that get thrown in your direction, you have to just keep going. Keep on climbing.

I was listening to this song this morning while I was looking back at my previous blog posts. The post that drew my attention in was the one with the resolutions. (Haha pulled a Friends there… did you catch it?)

  1. Be happy with who I am and in my own skin. Yeah nope, still haven’t gotten to that point yet.
  2. Smile and laugh more. On the fence with this…
  3. Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time. Well I’ve definitely slowed down…
  4. Be a better helper around my house. Semi better. Room though – not so much. I’m a teenager living in an adults body.
  5. Write more on my blog.:) WELL THAT’S AN EPIC FAIL!

The year is almost to the halfway mark, and I have really only accomplished one of these!? How?! Let’s talk about this now…

  • Be happy with who I am and in my own skin.

There were points so far in the year, where I was feeling so great about myself. The thing is, once something goes bad, I just shut down. Lately, I’ve been having feeling that whole “I’m gonna keep one foot in and one foot out, because I know the other shoe will drop.” I need to really work on not shutting down. Take for instance when I got hurt. Did I say, “okay, this is just a minor set back… I can continue to do other workouts and still eat healthy!” Nope. I got depressed and totally had that “well fuck everything then” kinda attitude. Is that the way to go about being happy with who I am? Not in the slightest. I’m seeing this all now in a whole new light. Things won’t go my way. Shit will happen. It’s the way of the world. I can’t let it bring me down to where I’m shutting everything down, especially work that I’ve worked so hard on. I’ve taken steps to make my life more happy… I did finally apply to college! That’s something!

  • Smile and laugh more.

Hmm. Like I said, I’m on the fence with this. The most part, however, I’ve been very happy! So I’ll take that as a win.

  • Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time.

Oh boy, this is the only one on the list that I feel I’ve accomplished and then some. I started the year off strong, and then it just all went down hill. When I was a nanny, I was constantly busy with the kids, driving to and from work, working out, babysitting… Now though, I’ve done a 180. I go to work, come home, go for a walk or go to the gym, sleep, repeat. See, definitely have slowed down.

  • Be a better helper around my house.

Well well well… we’ve come to this bullet. I feel I’ve gotten slightly better… not a whole hell of a lot, but slightly! Seriously though, as I’ve said earlier… I’m a messy teen living in an adult body. People who know me though… I’ve always been messy.

  • Write more on my blog.

Seriously, out of everything on the list… this is the only one that I have totally failed at. I really can’t believe how bad I am at getting on here. I enjoy typing out what I’m feeling… A lot of these days consist of like I said earlier… nothing. I feel like nothing exciting really goes on in my life anymore. Sad huh? I need some excitement people!


 

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday… A day of rest was anything but. I spent the morning cleaning my tornado of a room. It’s mind blowing how messy and disorganized I can let it get. It’s a lot cleaner now thank heavens, but I have a pile of laundry just glaring at me to pick up and wash. Maybe it’ll actually happen once I finish this…

**Edit: Yep, I’ve come to the realization that it will have to get done in the morning. **

I decided I HAD to get outside today, so I started it off by grilling chicken, hamburgers, turkey dogs, fingerling potato wedges, and asparagus. It was fabulous. Enjoyed the sunshine and 78° weather. I then helped my mom with all the outside “spring cleaning” stuff that needed to be done. I got quite a few steps in doing all of the stuff she wanted done.  While we were out there, I took multiple trips over to our neighbor’s yard so I could smell those tree blossoms that come every spring. I can’t get enough of these blossoms… they are so beautiful and fragrant!

Once we were all done outside, I couldn’t just go inside and sit on the couch… So I went back out for a walk!! I laced up my new shoes and hit the pavement!

All in all today was all around great. I’m very happy. Oh something else that I am ECSTATIC about… LOOK AT THESE STEPS!!!! My Achilles ached practically the whole time, but I need to walk!

I haven't had this many steps in over two months. It feels so good. 🙂

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I wanna say this concludes my post for the night. It’s pretty close to it being tomorrow already and I should hit the hay… I’ve got some exciting plans tomorrow… I shall let you know later what it is! 🙂

Until next time,
Aubrie

Happiness Starts Within.

Hello my friends.

Wow, it has been awhile again. I’m not going to make promises to be on here to write anymore because, sadly I just end up breaking my word. Plus, maybe if I don’t say I’ll be on maybe then I actually will end up coming on to write and keep up with everyone.

So what all has been going on since the last time I was on? Well…

  • I applied for college
  • I did in fact injured my Achilles and have been going to Physical Therapy because it is STILL not feeling any better…
  • I’ve been to the gym ONCE since February.
  • I got my bridesmaid dress for the August wedding I’m in… and it’s already a little big!

You read right… I decided to pursue those dreams I’ve always had and I’ve applied to the local college for a degree in Childhood Development! Eek! I’m still super shocked that I applied. I’m just now having to get to my old high school to get my transcript, and then I need to mail in my college transcript as well. I should probably get to doing that… I’m super excited!

The last time I wrote, I mentioned that I went to the doctor and she thought that I hurt my Achilles. Well, after it had hurt for another week, I called her back and she said that it was time to go to the next level; Physical Therapy. I’ve been going to PT for… 5 weeks now… We’ve discovered that it’s not only my Achilles that is giving me pain… it’s my lower back, sciatic nerve AND my knee as well! I’ve been a trooper this whole time. I’ve put up with the pain and didn’t say much of anything. Well, until this last time. My PT guy and I were having a conversation about something, and he had happened to just barely move my leg to the side, but for some reason, holy hannah did it hurt. It was like a light switch got flicked and BAM! the tears started flowing! Oh did it hurt. Must have been something because then my hamstring locked up and my leg wouldn’t release. Oh this body of mine. It’s going down the crapper! 😛 It’s the old age I tell ya! I’ll get there though, that much I know. Why? Because I’m a fighter and I’ll get past this!

I never ended up going to the gym after my doctor said I could. I didn’t want to make anything worse, so I just stayed home and continued to eat crap. I was going through a very depressive period because of work, not going to the gym, always hurting, and then I had zero energy to eat right. So after I bathed in self pity for a while, I decided that all the bs was getting me no where. I decided to create a DietBet and would have it start April 1. I also decided I NEEDED to get back to the gym, so I got my hind end up at 4:30am and got to the gym by 5am. All I wanted to do was get on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes. I wanted to start off slow, so I only had the treadmill speed on 1.8/1.9. That’s pretty slow for me. I didn’t sweat or breathe hard, but I wanted to at least be on the treadmill and at least BE at the gym.

Hey, I'm happy! Not my best, but I'll take it for a first day back. 😄👍🏼

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The whole time I was on there though, my whole foot felt tingly and started to ache towards the end of 30 minutes. I came home, and did the RICE method. I fell asleep and slept for a couple hours before I had to get up for work. Woke up and holy crap was that thing swollen! It ended up killing the whole rest of the day. Bummer dude. So I haven’t gone back to the gym since then. BUT!!! I did go on an hour long walk last night… and boy was that ever needed. It’s been the first actual spring feeling day here in MN, and boy was the fresh air and sun needed to boost up my spirits!!

#hellominnesotaspring #fitfam #eveningwalk

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Last topic…

The bridesmaid dress!!!! When I first tried on the dress in the store, I had tried on a 24. I remember it just BARELY fitting. I had to unzip it and remember just feeling, “Ughhhh I don’t want someone to have to zip this and see all my back fat…” I also remember saying to my bestie, “Eh I can totally just buy a 22 and it would work.” Well, then winter happened and I wasn’t losing any weight. So I decided last week when I finally ordered the dress to just be on the safe side and order the 24. I got it on Tuesday and boy oh boy was I shocked! First off, I could put it on over my head WITHOUT having to unzip it!!! It was actually a little big as well! Man on man, seriously, I’m super happy about it! I weighed in that day as well, and I actually have lost at least 3.3 lbs since april 1. Can I get a whoohoo!!! That is honestly just eating right! I’m happy with how things are starting to go… Gotta look to the future.

Maybe there's not THAT much of a difference, but I see a little bit!! 🙂 #fitfam #throwbackthursday

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Dreams.

Hello friends. I’ve done it again… I’ve stopped writing. Life has been pretty hectic lately. Things are in a constant state of commotion lately, and I haven’t really stopped to just breathe. The past couple of weekends have been non-stop. I work all week so I end up saving everything I normally need to get done during the week for Saturday and Sunday. The worst is when I need to work on Saturday, then everything gets piled on Sunday. Last weekend I went out with great friends. We went to four different bars and by the end of the night, I was definitely feeling the alcohol. The next day was spent sleeping, going to play bingo (told a friend I’d go so I was keeping a promise), and sleeping some more. The day after that is when the hangover finally hit. I felt miserable. So again another day of doing nothing but busy work and resting. 

On top of everything that went on… I haven’t even gotten to the gym in over 2 weeks. The first week I didn’t go, it was my TOM so I physically and emotionally didn’t want to be around people if I didn’t have to be. The day after it was done, I was moving product around at work, and ended up doing something to my Achilles. Going up and down the step ladder after a couple weeks running at the gym… My body was just tired and strained. So I didn’t go to the gym for another week. This past Thursday, I finally decided I needed to get it check out, because it wasn’t feeling any better yet. Went to my doctor and she kept throwing “tendinitis” around and told me she’s fairly positive I did in fact do something to it. She wrapped it and told me to “rest”. She did say I could still go to the gym and use the elliptical and stationary bike, but I’ve been so scared I’ll do something worse to it. Luckily a friend told me that I should be fine, so I’m hoping to get back there tomorrow. 

The nurse on Thursday also had me take a depression test. Honestly, I knew deep down that I have some form of depression. It runs in my family, and lately I’ve just not been happy with how my life is going. There’s times where I’m starting to like who I’m becoming and what I’m doing and then something happens and it all just falls apart. For the past few months, I’ve been toying with the idea of going back to college. What I’m doing with my life right now is not making me happy. I’m going to be 26 in a couple months and I feel like I’ve made no progress and I’ve gotten no where. A lot of my day is spent dreaming. Dreaming of the life I could have had if I would have given a damn about myself in the past. I also dream about what life could be if I start caring right now. It’s not too late. I’m still young. A lot of it I think is the fear of failing. What happens if I decide to go back to college and I either can’t handle it or I end up hating what I’m doing, just like the last time? The same could be though, what if I succeed and I love it? Why does fear outweigh positive thinking? I wish I knew the answers, but I sadly don’t. Really though, does anyone hold the key to this mystery? When I got the results from the nurse, it came back as “mild depression”. I didn’t say anything to my dr. about it when she saw me, just because I thought, I don’t want there to be one more thing wrong with me. Talking to my best friend though, she told me not to be ashamed about it. I’m realizing more and more that I really shouldn’t be ashamed. 

I’m sitting here today, thinking more about my dreams. Where I would love to see myself in the future and what I would be happy doing. 

  
We really are never too old to dream, and when you really think about it, we really are never to old to take ahold of that dream and pursue it either. 

Busy Busy Busy.

Hello!

I’ve been extremely swamped the past week, so that’s why I haven’t been on here to talk. So, why have I been swamped you ask? Well here let me explain…

So my last post was last Tuesday, and I left you with me telling you about my boring day and a stomachache. I went home and slept it off and by the next morning, I was back to normal! This isn’t the first time I’ve had a stomachache like that, and I think the root cause is when I eat only vegetables for a meal or I eat the vegetables first. I had brought chicken and then an eggplant, zucchini, onion saute mixture, and I had eaten the veggie stir fry first. After I got my gallbladder removed a few years ago, I’ve noticed that veggies don’t breakdown as well as they once did. I end up getting an acidic sour feeling in my stomach, and then it all goes down hill from there. If I eat something before my vegetables though, I don’t have this problem. It only occurs when I only eat vegetables or eat them at the beginning of my meal. You learn something new every day!


Wednesday

I went to work and did the same old, same old. We still don’t have any other stylists yet, so it was just me selling the product. If I remember correctly… that was the day I didn’t sell a thing to anyone. Oh so boring.

 

I went to the gym after work, and it was beyond busy. When I first waked in, all the treadmills were taken. I was bummed because the whole day, I was psyching myself up to complete Day 3 of Couch to 5K. I went to the bathroom with the plan to just go on the elliptical until a treadmill became available. It was like I walked out into another dimension though when I got out of the bathroom, because the people had all vanished. All but one treadmill was available. So I hurried up and grabbed my Beats and my phone and made my way to the treadmill. I got on and started walking. As I started to go a little faster, two people got on the treadmills on either side. I’m still extremely new with running at the gym. I still feel so self conscious about what I may look like, so I was really thinking about just not doing it. Then that little voice inside me, that I used to just ignore, started really yelling at me. Why am I caring what other people think? Do their opinions of me really matter? NO! So I turned on my favorite playlist and I started up the C25K app.

I'm slacking tonight it's not ending!

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After taking a couple days off from running at the gym, it honestly felt like I was never going to finish that workout. I was getting tired, my body was hurting, and I was so close to giving up. I started thinking about that little voice some more though. The more I thought about her, she started getting louder and louder. “You can do it. Don’t give up now. You are doing so well. Just keep going…” So I continued to push on.

People I'm dying. But all 268lbs of me is gonna finish running day 3 damn it. #fitfam #icandothis

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Finally, I could see the end was near. I couldn’t breathe, and my body at this point was killing me. Did I give up? Did I give in to that thought in my mind that kept whispering, “Just stop. You did enough. Why continue on and be uncomfortable? You could stop now and you would be able to breathe…” No, I tuned that voice out by turning up my music…

HOLY CRAP! I did it! #perserverance #dontgiveup #wecandoit #fitfam #w1d3 #c25k #weightwatchers #ificanrunyoucanrun

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…and look what I did. I finished Day 3.


Thursday

I finished the first book of 2016!

Oh man, was this ever a great book. There were times during this book that I had to physically stop reading because it was making me depressed just by reading what the character was dealing with. I’ve been in dark places like Esther has, so it was hard reading different parts of this. Am I glad though that I actually read the book finally and finished it? You betcha! I think everyone should be required to read it. So, if you haven’t, please go to your local library and find it! It will change your life; even if it’s a small change.

The library in my town is open quite late on Thursdays, so I decided I would just go there after work to get more books and return the four I checked out before.

The beautiful @building.my.confidence tagged me for #widn 👍🏼 got back from the library! Yaaaaay!! New books!

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I had planned to go to the gym after the library, but while I was looking for books at the library, I ended up having a Vertigo episode, that got the best of me. I can always tell when I’m about to have one, so I pretty much grabbed the first books I could find from The Rory Gilmore Reading Challenge, and got out of there. I don’t know if I just moved my head the wrong way, or if I got up to fast from bending over, but all of a sudden I got extremely hot, a wave of nausea washed over me, and I thought I would pass out in the Fiction section. I tried to just take it easy once I got home, but the feelings just wouldn’t pass, so I ended up going to bed before 9:30.


Friday

I felt so much better the next morning (Thank God!!!). I got to work, and since I didn’t have much to do, I started reading The Joy Luck Club. This book has had my attention from the first page. I was already halfway done with the book by the time I left work.


Saturday

What an extremely busy day!!! I helped Sarah get ready for her first high school dance, by doing her hair and makeup. It was so fun getting to help and spending time with her. As a lot of you know, I don’t have any siblings, so she’s the closest thing I have to a sister.

Sarah (left) and her friends from Snoball! So so pretty!!!

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It was very bitter sweet seeing her with her date and taking all their pictures. She’s growing up so fast and seeing her grow up, makes me realize that I, too, am growing up. I can see now why parents always get emotional at times like these. Granted I’m not a parent yet, but if I can get emotional seeing her grow up, I can’t imagine what I’ll be like if I ever do have children.

After I got done taking all their pictures, I went over to my best friends house to have game night! We ate and had a merry time. I brought over Cards Against Humanity and we played and drank (I drank water while they drank alcohol. I’m still paranoid I will feel like crap after drinking because of it mixing with the meds I take).


 

Sunday

What did I do yesterday? Man, it’s kind of seeming like a blur… oh yes, I remember now! Gym and I went to the lake to bring groceries out to my aunt who needed them! “The beast” (furnace) went out and so she couldn’t leave the house. After all was said and done, I went back home, and took a little nap, and then watched The Golden Globes.

It was a glorious Sunday!


That brings me to today…

I have done absolutely nothing today. I slept in the chair with Mozzie all morning. I really couldn’t do much of anything because our water heater went out so the men were installing a new one in the basement. After they left, my dad treated me to Perkins for brunch. Really… that’s all that has happened so far. I may be going shopping later with my mom and then I’ll head on to the gym at some point as well. Just enjoying the last day off of my three day weekend.


 

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

Until next time…

Aubrie