2016.

It’s here. The new year.

How did your first day go? Did some habits roll over?

Mine did. Not as bad, but to some extent yes.

I started my day by drinking a Mimosa. Why? Because I for starters had extra champagne from the night before and secondly, mimosa’s are just so good!! I stupidly didn’t eat anything for breakfast besides a cheese stick, but then for lunch at leftovers from last nights dinner. Let’s just back up to NYE…

It started as any other day, except I was in a very chipper mood. The year was coming to an end, and I was trying to think of all the good things that had happened. I don’t know if it’s the old age kicking in (haha I kid…) or that I didn’t have all that many fun adventures in 2015,  but it was so hard to remember all that I did. I mean I remember the basics… Finally joined a gym, road tripped to Chicago, spent time at the lake… I feel like there was more, but I honestly just can’t remember them! After knowing I couldn’t remember all that happened, I left to go to work. This is when everything went down the drain. Work was a nightmare. We didn’t have a stylist there, and of course, everyone and their mother (quite literally) was wanting a haircut. I had to turn away so many people, and I would definitely say about every other person that came in, got extremely pissed and yelled or said not so nice things to me. One lady even made me cry! It was so bad… That’s retail as I’m told though. I just have to shake it off because I have nothing to do with it. It’s hard to do though when you’re the type of person who takes things to heart… very easily. After hours of having people get mad at me, I was really looking forward to getting Caribou Coffee during my break. My mom came and we went off to get our coffee! Caribou had a buy one get one free deal going on for perks members, so I was extremely excited! It always seems like it takes years to finally get something you’ve been craving for all day. Once we got inside and were walking to Caribou, I saw that none of the workers were behind the counter, and that there was a sign in the front… I walked up to it to read that… “CLOSED DUE TO TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES”… Can you imagine the heartache I was feeling?? We asked and it would be quite awhile for them to be up and running again. I only had a half hour break, so we sadly had to leave… with no coffee. I really hadn’t used the bathroom that day because I was so busy telling customers there were no stylists, so I really had to go. I started my way over the bathroom since we couldn’t get coffee and guess what… The bathroom was closed as well. You must know the feeling… The feeling of, “well if one thing is going wrong, everything that follows is going to go to sh*t as well!” Once I finally got back, things didn’t end up getting any better at work. I only had a handful of customers actually buy product, and the rest of the people that came in, still continued to get mad at me.

Once I got home, it was like a weight had been lifted off. My mom was already starting to cook our dinner (we had an appetizer dinner!).

While we ate we watched Spy (love that movie!!!) and had our fair share of laughs. Then, while my mom fell asleep, I continued to stay up until midnight to see the ball drop. I had my annual cry as it dropped and as Auld Lang Syne played and cried even harder while New York, New York played.

My favorite version of Auld Lang Syne =

All in all… Even though my NYE wasn’t the best during the day, my night really ended fantastically. I was safely at home and spent it with my parents and my pups. I was surrounded by family. Isn’t that everyone’s wish? There’s really nothing that I should complain about.


 

My New Year’s Day has been completely awesome. I slept until 9am, watched Hot Pursuit with my mom, and just totally vegged all day. I was able to update my Weight Watcher recipes from plus points to smart points, and then we watched an extremely sappy Hallmark Christmas Movie.

Later in the evening we got together with Connie, Joe, and Sarah and headed to Pizza Ranch for a fun get together, then came back to our house and played games. We played Mad Gab until everyone was sick of it, and then we taught them how to play Nuts. It’s such a fun card game. I was even the big winner! Whoohoo!

So see? It was a fantastic New Year’s Eve/Day for me this year!


 

I thought a lot about what I want my resolutions to be this year and for the longest time, I really only could come up with one thing….

  1. My resolution is to not have a resolution.

Why? Because how many times do people make resolutions and then either never follow through or start, or start and go for a couple months and then stop? Then, after stopping get totally disappointed in themselves and wonder, why did I even make that a resolution?

After I thought of all that, then I started to get mad at myself. Did I not learn to not get disappointed in myself? I’m starting to go right back down the same rabbit hole if I keep this up! So I decided to think of other kind of resolutions for myself instead of the usual “lose 50 pounds”, “stop eating sweets”, and “no more pop”.

  1. Be happy with who I am and in my own skin.
  2. Smile and laugh more (this isn’t going to be hard!)
  3. Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time.
  4. Be a better helper around my house.
  5. Write more on my blog. 🙂

I think that’s a nice start to my list. I mean, I can always add more as the weeks go on. I think I may actually do a good job with my resolutions this year! Whoohoo!


 

Well friends, I think that’s it for today, considering by the time I’m finally finishing this it’s 12:21 am on  January 2nd.

Hey, at least I’m making a post! 😉

I hope you all had a wonderful NYE and NYD and a wonderful, brand new start to 2016.

It’s our year to shine.

Until next time…
Aubrie

Let the countdown begin…

Less than 24 hours stands in between 2015 and 2016. I was asked on Instagram what I learned this year. This year really has been one in the record books. There were some firsts – first date, first day at a new job…  things I’m leaving behind – being a nanny, friendships… When I look back at this year in a whole, I’m proud that I’m still here standing tall. So many things happened this year emotionally and physically that if I hadn’t been strong enough to overcome, I don’t know exactly where I would have ended up. I’m still here though, and I’m still fighting. Listed below are the “3 Things 2015 Taught Me”:

  1. I need to lose weight for me and not so people will like me. When I first started this journey, I started because I was 24, single, and unhappy. I thought that the only way a guy would like me was if I was skinny and pretty. I started the year off by thinking I wasn’t good enough for anyone. It took me the whole year to realize… Fuck those guys who only care about the outside and not about what truly matters… The inside. I’m losing weight and getting healthy for ME. No one else. It’s such a huge relief to finally not fully care what people think. I mean, I can go to the gym with my head held high and see those “hot guys” there and not feel intimidated. (Well sometimes I do just a little but it’s only because they are extremely good looking… I am a girl after all!)

  2. I don’t have to be afraid of what people think or say if I stumble on this journey. Most importantly, I don’t have to be disappointed in myself if and when I stumble. When I started, I felt so guilty if I ever slipped up because “what are people going to think?” Or “why did I allow myself to do this?”I’ve said it once and I will continue to say it… I didn’t get this size over night. It’s gonna take a lot of effort and time. I’ve learned that, shit, I’ve fallen on my ass so many times and yet I STILL get up and continue on. I’ve seen so many people try their hardest and end up giving up. I will never give up.
  3.  There are so many other wonderful people out there going and feeling the exact same thing(s) as me! I’m so thankful each every day for my awesome and newfound family on Instagram and the blogs. Like I said in a previous post, I don’t know what I’d do without all of you. I’ve learned to open up and not be afraid of what I’m going through and dealing with. Posting my weight… that was a huge thing to overcome. I was always afraid of, “These people are going to see my weight… what if I know someone that see’s this?” That all went out the window after talking and getting to know everyone. We don’t need to feel ashamed or embarrassed. I saw a post on Instagram that said, “You are not fat. You have fat. You also have fingernails but you are not fingernails.” What an awesome message. 

2015

what a year. I’m ready to move on to 2016. I’m ready for a new year full of firsts. I’m ready for a fresh start. I’m ready for a brand new chapter.


 

I have a few little updates since I wrote yesterday…

  • So this happened…

Oh my body. So I went to the gym thinking, "I'm just going to start watching Coyote Ugly since Netflix is stupidly getting rid of it in January." Well… That turned into me watching the whole damn movie because I a.) love it so much and b.) I might as well actually DO something than just sit on my butt and watch it. My legs feel like jello right now though! I am definitely going to sleep oh so well tonight!!! I also listened to 20 minutes or so of one of my favorite playlists on the RockMyRun app. LOVE this playlist!!! It's so damn good! If you have the app… Totally take a listen. If you don't have the app… Get this app! It's FREE!!! #fitfam #fitness #gymtherapy #gymtime #weightwatchers #imbeat #keepmoving #treadmill #walking #coyoteugly #rockmyrun #gymstats #GoalDigger #fitgirls #wwfattitude #wwfam #cantgiveup #cantstopwontstop

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5 miles… whoa! If that’s not an accomplishment, I don’t know what is!

  • I FINALLY finished Moby Dick!!!!!!
  • I started and finished Freaky Friday, and then I started Who Moved My Cheese today and finished that as well! (If you haven’t ready Who Moved My Cheese yet… Oh you must! It’s a WONDERFUL read! It talks about the fear of change, and how some people react. It also talks about stepping out of your comfort zone in order for change to happen. Seriously… it’s such a good book!!!)

 

Well friends, I think that’s it really… for now.

Thanks to all of you who are still sticking by me.

Until next time…

Aubrie

 

Last 2015 Weigh-In.

So today was the last official 2015 weigh in. Of course I just had to have gained. 

  
I keep telling myself not to stress about it, because at least it wasn’t higher of a gain. I mean, looking back to the past week, I ate a lot of junk! I stuffed myself to the brim with such wonderful food on Christmas! We had smoked turkey, pulled pork, prime rib, calico beans with bacon, cheesy hash brown casserole, scalloped potatoes with ham, green bean casserole, scalloped corn casserole, deviled eggs, wheat and white dinner rolls, and a great big veggie tray. We also had homemade Chex mix on top of that! Looking back… Holy food! We had so much! But it was so delicious! After we ate and played some games, it was of course time for dessert! There was cherry pie, blueberry pie, pumpkin pie, apple pie, blueberry marshmallow pie, cookies upon cookies and ice cream. I only had a sliver of cherry and blueberry, but I also ate my fair share of cookies. 

Honestly, how did I ONLY gain 1.3 pounds?! With all of that I should have gained more! When it was all said and done, I’m glad I didn’t restrict myself on Christmas. It made me realize that I really can’t continue to eat like that. I Rene bee when I first started Weight Watchers, I thought I would keel over because I was having to cut my portion sizes. After this Christmas, I realized that I now get full after the smallest of meals. So thanks Weight Watchers for helping me realize I can eat smaller meals and still be full. 

Well I think that’s it for today’s posting. I will continue the fight against obesity! 

Until next time… 

Aubrie

Hello.

I don’t know why blogging can be so easy some days and then bam! I never write again in over a month.

Life has been very hectic after I quit being a nanny and started my new job in November. I love writing on my blog, but I just haven’t found the time sadly. I’ve stayed in touch with my Instagram and Facebook friends, but haven’t really connected with my fellow bloggers. Sorry for that. I really don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have any of you (bloggers, instagramers, and facebookers) in my life! I rely on all of you so much!!


 

Anywho, enough of that mushy stuff…

Onto how I’ve been!

So as I stated above… I left my nanny family and started my new job in November. It’s been a month now since I started and I’m feeling very indifferent about the new change in my life.

I miss my nanny kiddos every single day. I still have days where I think to myself, “Did I make the right decision?” I then think about it more and know that it was my time to move on. The kids are growing up, and pretty soon, won’t need me anymore. I was already starting to get less and less hours during the week and getting majority of my hours on the weekend. I didn’t see my family, and wasn’t seeing my friends at all anymore. Plus, I was spending so much money on gas and time in the car. So that alone, makes me glad I found a job in my town and not an hour away. The new job has had it’s challenges. I’m by myself every day. I have a few customers that come in, or I see friends and people I know that I talk with, but I also have the rude and crabby people who yell and take out their frustrations on me as well. Boo retail. I never realized how some people can be just so rude to one another. Our stylist had a family member pass within this week, and when I would let the customers know why she wasn’t here, they made rude comments and honestly were just downright mean. I will never understand people like that. I have to remind myself more and more these days this… “At least you are in town… You only have a 10 minute commute rather than an hour. You’re not in your car as much, and you’re gaining customer service experience.” I mean, who wouldn’t love to change things about their jobs? I just gotta keep trucking and keep at it.


 

Eating and exercise wise, has been totally off though sadly. Ever since Thanksgiving, my mind has been checked out for eating healthy. My mind has been set to holiday food mode and has been insanely hard to switch back to weight watcher friendly mode. Luckily though, I haven’t made much gains! That’s always good!!!!! Health wise and gym wise… for about a month, I was dealing with intense dizzy spells, headaches, and stomach aches. I went to the Dr. and got tons of blood taken for analysis, but it all came back normal. I’m healthy at least! We are thinking it’s just a bad case of Vertigo. It’s gotten better in the past couple weeks, so I finally got back to the gym. It felt good being back. I went out and got new gym clothes (just sweatshirt pull overs and workout pants… how can I live in cold Minnesota and only have one pair of workout pants???)


 

Hmm… What else is there to update you about? Right now, I have no clue! OH!!!!! I know!!!

I am almost finished with Moby Dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you guys know how long it has taken me to read this damn book!?! Well over a flipping’ year! It’s taken me so long!! I have 40-something more pages! So I’m heading to the Library now to check out a new one to check off The Rory Gilmore Reading Challenge!


 

Alright friends… We are supposed to be getting a huge winter storm in the next couple hours so I gotta get up and moving to get my butt to the library!!!!

Talk to you all very soon…

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Stepping out of my comfort zone.

Well guys… I stepped out of my comfort zone this evening.

I signed up and am now a member at Anytime Fitness.

It’s crazy to me that I did this. For starters, I’ve said for the longest time that I wasn’t going to ever go back to a gym because I have a Treadclimber and an actual weight machine in my basement. When I went yesterday though to the gym… I just really wanted to be apart of that gym. I loved the equipment and I felt a wave of motivation. Now though that I’ve done this, I’m so extremely nervous! I’ve gotten so many nice and encouraging words though from friends that is calming the nerves and allowing my excited feelings come out on top.

I’m debating on going tonight or just waiting until tomorrow… hmmm…

I just wanna sleeeeeep!

I am so incredibly tired right now and it’s not even 8:15p yet. I’m going to bed very shortly so this won’t be a long post at all.


So today was amazeballs! I went to the gym with a really great friend this morning and spent a good hour and a half or so there. The time went by SUPER fast which is honestly so crazy because hello… it’s the gym! I got my butt on the eliptical for a good half hour burned 250 calories, then went up stairs and she showed me how to do the TRX. Man, honestly, that’s all I can think of now… Like I wanna go back and do more of that! After she showed me some ways to use it, we walked back down and we did 30 minutes on the bikes and just “girl talked”. It was so nice to sit and catch up with her!

After we finished working out, we went and had brunch. Don’t even say it… I know what you’re thinking… brunch after you just worked out? yep… yes we did.

Next came pumpkin carving!!! Nicole came over and we did some carving along with Sarah and her 6 friends, and then my mom and Connie. I absolutely LOVE this time of year. I love fall and I love halloween. Ever since I was a young kid, my family has always carved pumpkins, so it was awesome getting to show the younger kids how to carve the way we do. What I just can’t get over is the, “hey Aubrie, did I do this right?” or “Aubrie, did I gut this pumpkin good enough or should I keep gutting it some more?”. I was very taken a back some of the times I was asked because I still think of myself as a teen… I don’t think of myself as “the adult”… So it was cool yet sad at the same time.

Well, that brings me all to now… I just took an insanely long and hot shower, and am now getting ready for bed so I can get up at 4am to be to work by 6am. Ugh… 3pm can’t come soon enough!!

Good night!

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Last Man Standing.

I really couldn’t think of a subject line… so I put what I’m watching. This show is a hoot!

So I’m going to really try and type out something every single day. Even if it’s just a couple sentences. So here we go…

So today was “old habits” day. Old habits really do die hard don’t they. It started off fine… My two aunts came by my house to visit my fur babies. After they left, I went to the farmer’s market to “help” my mom. It was extremely freaking cold here today, so it ended up being absolutely dead there. What did I do then? I ate two of her cupcakes. I’m such a sucker to her baked goods. Especially those cupcakes! Didn’t help I didn’t eat breakfast though either. When you don’t eat breakfast, it messes with your whole day! After markets on Saturday we all normally then go out to eat somewhere. Since we don’t have very many sit down restaurants here in town, we chose Joe’s. I would like to say that I’m pretty proud of how much I did end up eating though. I got the Focaccia Grilled Cheese with french fries and then I added on the salad bar. I think what probably got me was the 3 cups of Taco soup I had… Oh it was so good and especially great after being out in the cold! I had a pretty good sized salad, and then only ate half of my sandwich and fries! Normally I would have gotten multiple cups of soup, had multiple trips to the salad bar, eaten my whole sandwich and fries, and then would have been thinking, “Hmm… there’s pudding up at the salad bar. I’m gonna get some!!” After it was all said and done though, I was extremely stuffed and was stuffed even until dinner time, so I skipped it. That wasn’t the brightest idea either, because around 7:30p, I started getting a little hungry, but for sour cream and onion ruffles. So, I ate some, not a whole lot, but still I had enough. Then, to top everything off for the end of the night… at 11:00p, I devoured two more cupcakes. UGH! Lesson is definitely learned though now.

My new plan of action…

  1. DON’T BUY CUPCAKES FROM MY MOM!
  2. Always eat breakfast. No excuses, and they can’t be cupcakes!
  3. If I go out, I’m going to start asking for a to-go box right away, and put half of it in there so I don’t eat the whole thing.
  4. Eat dinner around the same time every day. This may be a little hard just do to the fact that I have such crazy hours at work that are never the same every day.
  5. Don’t eat after 10pm. I really think I can do this one! If I’m already going to start eating dinner around the same time every day, if I’m at work, I’ll start bringing a dinner, and then I won’t be coming home late and wanting to eat dinner or snacks.

I think this is a good start of an action plan. I think I can do it!


I’m really looking forward to tomorrow! Starting off my morning by going to a gym with Nicole, then we’re going to brunch, and then I’m coming home and we’re (along with my mom, godmother, Sarah and then her handful of friends), are going to carve pumpkins!!! I am SO FREAKIN’ EXCITED!!!! It’s going to be an awesome Sunday Funday! I’ll tell you more about it tomorrow!

Thanks for listening!

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Full of Emotions.

So have you heard Adele’s new single, Hello? If not, here listen to it now…

So the minute it started playing I fell in love. The second time however, when I really started listening to the lyrics… I started to cry. This song, for me at least, doesn’t tell the story of an ex. For me, it’s like a conversation with myself from either the past or the person I’d thought I’d be but still am not. (again this is just how I’m interpreting it… so don’t judge!)

Hello – Adele

Hello? It’s me.
I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet.
To go over, everything.
They say that times supposed to heal you but I ain’t done much healing.
Hello? Can you hear me?
I’m in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger, and free.
I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet.
There’s such a difference between us,
And a million miles.
Hello from the other side.
I must have called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done
But when I called, you never seem to be home.
Hello from the outside.
At least I can say that I tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart
But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore.
Hello? How are you?
It’s so typical of me to talk about myself, I’m sorry.
I hope, that you’re well.
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened.
It’s no secret that the both of us
Are running out of time.
So, hello from the other side.
I must have called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done.
But when I called, you never seem to be home.
Hello from the outside.
At least I can say that I tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart.
But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore.

When I was a kid and teen, I pictured my life would be totally different than what it is right now. I thought I’d be married and have kids by now. Thought I would be making more money than the pennies I make now. I pictured myself fit and healthy and definitely not the size I am today. Every once in awhile, I see that person I wanted to be in my head. I wonder where she ever went. Why she got moved to the back burner. I remember how when we’re kids, the world is such a big and exciting place. We didn’t have the worries of adults, only the dreams of our wild imaginations. Sadly though, when we grow up, a lot of us lose sight of the things we used to dream about. Life gets in the way, and we start to lose faith in ourselves. I know this because I’ve lost faith in myself so many times. Then, when you think you find just a small part of your once huge dream, it’s like you can’t get through to it or grasp it, and it slowly fades away again.

This song perfectly describes the conversation I’d have with her.

So, thanks Adele for this song. It’s made me see those dreams I used to have. It makes me want to grab on tight and not let go… I want it to matter, because it does matter.

I’m back… well hopefully that is.

I only had two blog posts in September, say what!? I can’t believe it was only two… Then again I kinda can. :/

I sadly have not had anything to really write or talk about lately. I’m stuck in a really dark rut. I was, for a while, eating extremely poorly and not getting more than 5k steps a day.  I wish I could go into full disclosure about what is putting me in this sad feeling place, but sadly I can’t.

I know for sure that I’ve posted on the topic of “wishing my life was different”. A lot of days recently I wished just that again. It’s a sad place to be in when you would rather be anything or anyone else.

Life is hard. You’re going to run into obstacles. There will be bumps in the road that sometimes feel like mountains. You will fall flat on your ass and sometimes may be trampled by the hooves of life. it won’t keep you down. You will get back up and dust yourself off. You are strong. You won’t give up. You can’t give up. You just have to deal with it and move past it.

Man, if I can come up with that… why can’t I actually use that for myself? It’s definitely easier to tell someone else this and motivate them, rather than yourself. Motivation, that’s a tricky thing some days. There are days where I have it exploding out of me, and others I can’t even find a shot glass full.

Luckily though, I found some and I shoved it in my back pocket. 🙂

So this is to you, the person who reads this, even if its no one but myself, when I need to find some encouraging words in the future…

If you get sidetracked, maybe for the billionth time, it doesn’t matter. The thing that matters most is that you keep going. Don’t worry about what people will think or say about your restarting. The ones who really matter will be there every step of the way; when you fall on your face and when you get right back up. You can do it. Even if it takes you the rest of your life. You can do this. You’re not alone… I’m here!

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Spaghetti Squash and Turkey Sausage Bake.

Spaghetti Squash and Turkey Sausage Bake

  • Servings: 8
  • Difficulty: easy
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INGREDIENTS:

  • 1 large Spaghetti Squash
  • 10oz. Jennie O Turkey Breakfast Sausage
  • 1 cup fat free chicken broth
  • 1 cup skim milk
  • 4 cloves garlic, minced
  • 1/4 cup grated Parmesan Cheese
  • 2 Tbsp butter
  • 2 Tbsp whole wheat flour
  • 1 Tbsp dried ground sage
  • 2 tsp dried parsley
  • 1 cup Panko breadcrumbs
  • 1 cup mozzarella cheese, shredded
  • salt and pepper, to taste

DIRECTIONS:

Preheat oven to 400°. Cut spaghetti squash in half lengthwise. Fill a pan with 1/2″ of water and set squash face down. Place in oven for 1 hour or until squash is tender. (If you poke it with a fork and the fork can easily go in, it’s ready.) Remove from oven and let cool. While squash is cooling, cook the turkey sausage. Once the squash is cool, scrape with a fork to remove in long strands and place in a sprayed 9 x 13 pan. Add turkey sausage to spaghetti squash in pan. Melt butter over medium-high heat. Stir in flour. Slowly whisk in milk, broth, and garlic. Bring to a boil, whisking constantly. Lower heat, and stir in parmesan, sage, and parsley. Once mixed, pour sauce over squash and sausage and mix well. In a small dish, combine panko breadcrumbs and mozzarella cheese. Once combined, sprinkle on top. Bake 30 minutes and let cool for 5 minutes.

PREP TIME =15 MINUTES
COOK TIME = 1 hour, 30 MINUTES

SERVING SIZE = 1 CUP
EACH SERVING = 6 POINTS +