Yippy Skippy!


First off, I got the next badge on Fitbit! The 10lbs lost badge! What’s even better is that I’ve lost more than 10… I’ve hit -12! I started looking back at my weight graph on the weight watchers app, and I saw how that little line went up and down up and down all through the past couple of years. The thought of “man you need to step it up” never came to mind. Instead, the thought of “look at you! All of this and you still never give up,” was the first thing that popped in there.

Next thing I want to talk about was my night a couple nights ago. I decided to try on a shirt that Sarah got. It was definitely too big for her, so I thought hey, why not try it on. It was, however, no normal shirt. It was that spandex material that sucks it all in and makes you feel like a sausage. I never looked into a mirror, but I knew it wasn’t at all attractive. I walked out and asked how it looked. I could tell that she was just trying to be nice about it. I mean, she didn’t want to hurt my feelings by saying the wrong thing. My mom however said something that still is sticking with me today. It’s not the exact wording, it’s just the meaning behind it. “It’s too late for me to change my size, you’re still young at least.” It makes me sad that she, and quite frankly, a lot of people feel that way. You’re never too old to live a healthier life. There’s always time to make better choices with your body, mind, and soul. Yes, it does get harder as you grow up, but there’s never a point where you should just stop and not care anymore.

I remember when I made my first post. I remember looking through other blogs thinking, “man these people are doing so well! And look how much they’re losing… And it’s so fast! I bet I’m going to be just like that!” Losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle aren’t always happy. There’s tough roads, hard decisions, and honestly quite a few bad days. Days when all you want to do is lay in bed all day with a tub of ice cream because your day sucked. Days where all of your friends are going out to have a fun time, but you need to stay in because you don’t want to be tempted by food all night. I also learned that there’s no set time to lose all the weight. I’ve heard countless of times from blogs, doctors, and friends that the faster you lose, the faster and more you gain back. A friend of mine posted on Instagram a while back that she was going to continue to work on losing weight, but not letting weight loss define how she was going to live her life. It wasn’t until recently that I finally understood what she meant. We can’t go through life saying no to fun and exciting experiences! We only have one life to live. What’s the point in living if we have all of these rules and limits. Now, I’m not saying go out and eat junk food every night because you want to live and be happy. In the long run, I strongly doubt you will be happy. What I am saying is, if you get invited out with friends or family, don’t say no because there may be a possibility of straying off course. Go and have fun with your friends. Make good choices the week and day of until you get to where ever it is you’re going. Don’t limit your life to one way. I promise you’ll be more happy when you loosen the reins and enjoy life in its entirety.
Until next time,

Aubrie

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Fly.

I am obsessed with Maddie & Tae and their cd, Start Here. This cd is always the first that’s played whenever I listen to music on my phone. If you haven’t heard of it… check it out! I especially can’t get enough of their song, Fly.

So keep on climbing, though the ground might shake
Just keep on reaching though the limb might break
We’ve come this far, don’t you be scared now
‘Cause you can learn to fly on the way down

 Such true and meaningful words. Even when things are rocky and seem like you won’t be able to overcome the obstacles that get thrown in your direction, you have to just keep going. Keep on climbing.

I was listening to this song this morning while I was looking back at my previous blog posts. The post that drew my attention in was the one with the resolutions. (Haha pulled a Friends there… did you catch it?)

  1. Be happy with who I am and in my own skin. Yeah nope, still haven’t gotten to that point yet.
  2. Smile and laugh more. On the fence with this…
  3. Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time. Well I’ve definitely slowed down…
  4. Be a better helper around my house. Semi better. Room though – not so much. I’m a teenager living in an adults body.
  5. Write more on my blog.:) WELL THAT’S AN EPIC FAIL!

The year is almost to the halfway mark, and I have really only accomplished one of these!? How?! Let’s talk about this now…

  • Be happy with who I am and in my own skin.

There were points so far in the year, where I was feeling so great about myself. The thing is, once something goes bad, I just shut down. Lately, I’ve been having feeling that whole “I’m gonna keep one foot in and one foot out, because I know the other shoe will drop.” I need to really work on not shutting down. Take for instance when I got hurt. Did I say, “okay, this is just a minor set back… I can continue to do other workouts and still eat healthy!” Nope. I got depressed and totally had that “well fuck everything then” kinda attitude. Is that the way to go about being happy with who I am? Not in the slightest. I’m seeing this all now in a whole new light. Things won’t go my way. Shit will happen. It’s the way of the world. I can’t let it bring me down to where I’m shutting everything down, especially work that I’ve worked so hard on. I’ve taken steps to make my life more happy… I did finally apply to college! That’s something!

  • Smile and laugh more.

Hmm. Like I said, I’m on the fence with this. The most part, however, I’ve been very happy! So I’ll take that as a win.

  • Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time.

Oh boy, this is the only one on the list that I feel I’ve accomplished and then some. I started the year off strong, and then it just all went down hill. When I was a nanny, I was constantly busy with the kids, driving to and from work, working out, babysitting… Now though, I’ve done a 180. I go to work, come home, go for a walk or go to the gym, sleep, repeat. See, definitely have slowed down.

  • Be a better helper around my house.

Well well well… we’ve come to this bullet. I feel I’ve gotten slightly better… not a whole hell of a lot, but slightly! Seriously though, as I’ve said earlier… I’m a messy teen living in an adult body. People who know me though… I’ve always been messy.

  • Write more on my blog.

Seriously, out of everything on the list… this is the only one that I have totally failed at. I really can’t believe how bad I am at getting on here. I enjoy typing out what I’m feeling… A lot of these days consist of like I said earlier… nothing. I feel like nothing exciting really goes on in my life anymore. Sad huh? I need some excitement people!


 

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday… A day of rest was anything but. I spent the morning cleaning my tornado of a room. It’s mind blowing how messy and disorganized I can let it get. It’s a lot cleaner now thank heavens, but I have a pile of laundry just glaring at me to pick up and wash. Maybe it’ll actually happen once I finish this…

**Edit: Yep, I’ve come to the realization that it will have to get done in the morning. **

I decided I HAD to get outside today, so I started it off by grilling chicken, hamburgers, turkey dogs, fingerling potato wedges, and asparagus. It was fabulous. Enjoyed the sunshine and 78° weather. I then helped my mom with all the outside “spring cleaning” stuff that needed to be done. I got quite a few steps in doing all of the stuff she wanted done.  While we were out there, I took multiple trips over to our neighbor’s yard so I could smell those tree blossoms that come every spring. I can’t get enough of these blossoms… they are so beautiful and fragrant!

Once we were all done outside, I couldn’t just go inside and sit on the couch… So I went back out for a walk!! I laced up my new shoes and hit the pavement!

All in all today was all around great. I’m very happy. Oh something else that I am ECSTATIC about… LOOK AT THESE STEPS!!!! My Achilles ached practically the whole time, but I need to walk!

I haven't had this many steps in over two months. It feels so good. 🙂

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I wanna say this concludes my post for the night. It’s pretty close to it being tomorrow already and I should hit the hay… I’ve got some exciting plans tomorrow… I shall let you know later what it is! 🙂

Until next time,
Aubrie

Dreams.

Hello friends. I’ve done it again… I’ve stopped writing. Life has been pretty hectic lately. Things are in a constant state of commotion lately, and I haven’t really stopped to just breathe. The past couple of weekends have been non-stop. I work all week so I end up saving everything I normally need to get done during the week for Saturday and Sunday. The worst is when I need to work on Saturday, then everything gets piled on Sunday. Last weekend I went out with great friends. We went to four different bars and by the end of the night, I was definitely feeling the alcohol. The next day was spent sleeping, going to play bingo (told a friend I’d go so I was keeping a promise), and sleeping some more. The day after that is when the hangover finally hit. I felt miserable. So again another day of doing nothing but busy work and resting. 

On top of everything that went on… I haven’t even gotten to the gym in over 2 weeks. The first week I didn’t go, it was my TOM so I physically and emotionally didn’t want to be around people if I didn’t have to be. The day after it was done, I was moving product around at work, and ended up doing something to my Achilles. Going up and down the step ladder after a couple weeks running at the gym… My body was just tired and strained. So I didn’t go to the gym for another week. This past Thursday, I finally decided I needed to get it check out, because it wasn’t feeling any better yet. Went to my doctor and she kept throwing “tendinitis” around and told me she’s fairly positive I did in fact do something to it. She wrapped it and told me to “rest”. She did say I could still go to the gym and use the elliptical and stationary bike, but I’ve been so scared I’ll do something worse to it. Luckily a friend told me that I should be fine, so I’m hoping to get back there tomorrow. 

The nurse on Thursday also had me take a depression test. Honestly, I knew deep down that I have some form of depression. It runs in my family, and lately I’ve just not been happy with how my life is going. There’s times where I’m starting to like who I’m becoming and what I’m doing and then something happens and it all just falls apart. For the past few months, I’ve been toying with the idea of going back to college. What I’m doing with my life right now is not making me happy. I’m going to be 26 in a couple months and I feel like I’ve made no progress and I’ve gotten no where. A lot of my day is spent dreaming. Dreaming of the life I could have had if I would have given a damn about myself in the past. I also dream about what life could be if I start caring right now. It’s not too late. I’m still young. A lot of it I think is the fear of failing. What happens if I decide to go back to college and I either can’t handle it or I end up hating what I’m doing, just like the last time? The same could be though, what if I succeed and I love it? Why does fear outweigh positive thinking? I wish I knew the answers, but I sadly don’t. Really though, does anyone hold the key to this mystery? When I got the results from the nurse, it came back as “mild depression”. I didn’t say anything to my dr. about it when she saw me, just because I thought, I don’t want there to be one more thing wrong with me. Talking to my best friend though, she told me not to be ashamed about it. I’m realizing more and more that I really shouldn’t be ashamed. 

I’m sitting here today, thinking more about my dreams. Where I would love to see myself in the future and what I would be happy doing. 

  
We really are never too old to dream, and when you really think about it, we really are never to old to take ahold of that dream and pursue it either. 

Busy Busy Busy.

Hello!

I’ve been extremely swamped the past week, so that’s why I haven’t been on here to talk. So, why have I been swamped you ask? Well here let me explain…

So my last post was last Tuesday, and I left you with me telling you about my boring day and a stomachache. I went home and slept it off and by the next morning, I was back to normal! This isn’t the first time I’ve had a stomachache like that, and I think the root cause is when I eat only vegetables for a meal or I eat the vegetables first. I had brought chicken and then an eggplant, zucchini, onion saute mixture, and I had eaten the veggie stir fry first. After I got my gallbladder removed a few years ago, I’ve noticed that veggies don’t breakdown as well as they once did. I end up getting an acidic sour feeling in my stomach, and then it all goes down hill from there. If I eat something before my vegetables though, I don’t have this problem. It only occurs when I only eat vegetables or eat them at the beginning of my meal. You learn something new every day!


Wednesday

I went to work and did the same old, same old. We still don’t have any other stylists yet, so it was just me selling the product. If I remember correctly… that was the day I didn’t sell a thing to anyone. Oh so boring.

 

I went to the gym after work, and it was beyond busy. When I first waked in, all the treadmills were taken. I was bummed because the whole day, I was psyching myself up to complete Day 3 of Couch to 5K. I went to the bathroom with the plan to just go on the elliptical until a treadmill became available. It was like I walked out into another dimension though when I got out of the bathroom, because the people had all vanished. All but one treadmill was available. So I hurried up and grabbed my Beats and my phone and made my way to the treadmill. I got on and started walking. As I started to go a little faster, two people got on the treadmills on either side. I’m still extremely new with running at the gym. I still feel so self conscious about what I may look like, so I was really thinking about just not doing it. Then that little voice inside me, that I used to just ignore, started really yelling at me. Why am I caring what other people think? Do their opinions of me really matter? NO! So I turned on my favorite playlist and I started up the C25K app.

I'm slacking tonight it's not ending!

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After taking a couple days off from running at the gym, it honestly felt like I was never going to finish that workout. I was getting tired, my body was hurting, and I was so close to giving up. I started thinking about that little voice some more though. The more I thought about her, she started getting louder and louder. “You can do it. Don’t give up now. You are doing so well. Just keep going…” So I continued to push on.

People I'm dying. But all 268lbs of me is gonna finish running day 3 damn it. #fitfam #icandothis

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Finally, I could see the end was near. I couldn’t breathe, and my body at this point was killing me. Did I give up? Did I give in to that thought in my mind that kept whispering, “Just stop. You did enough. Why continue on and be uncomfortable? You could stop now and you would be able to breathe…” No, I tuned that voice out by turning up my music…

HOLY CRAP! I did it! #perserverance #dontgiveup #wecandoit #fitfam #w1d3 #c25k #weightwatchers #ificanrunyoucanrun

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…and look what I did. I finished Day 3.


Thursday

I finished the first book of 2016!

Oh man, was this ever a great book. There were times during this book that I had to physically stop reading because it was making me depressed just by reading what the character was dealing with. I’ve been in dark places like Esther has, so it was hard reading different parts of this. Am I glad though that I actually read the book finally and finished it? You betcha! I think everyone should be required to read it. So, if you haven’t, please go to your local library and find it! It will change your life; even if it’s a small change.

The library in my town is open quite late on Thursdays, so I decided I would just go there after work to get more books and return the four I checked out before.

The beautiful @building.my.confidence tagged me for #widn 👍🏼 got back from the library! Yaaaaay!! New books!

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I had planned to go to the gym after the library, but while I was looking for books at the library, I ended up having a Vertigo episode, that got the best of me. I can always tell when I’m about to have one, so I pretty much grabbed the first books I could find from The Rory Gilmore Reading Challenge, and got out of there. I don’t know if I just moved my head the wrong way, or if I got up to fast from bending over, but all of a sudden I got extremely hot, a wave of nausea washed over me, and I thought I would pass out in the Fiction section. I tried to just take it easy once I got home, but the feelings just wouldn’t pass, so I ended up going to bed before 9:30.


Friday

I felt so much better the next morning (Thank God!!!). I got to work, and since I didn’t have much to do, I started reading The Joy Luck Club. This book has had my attention from the first page. I was already halfway done with the book by the time I left work.


Saturday

What an extremely busy day!!! I helped Sarah get ready for her first high school dance, by doing her hair and makeup. It was so fun getting to help and spending time with her. As a lot of you know, I don’t have any siblings, so she’s the closest thing I have to a sister.

Sarah (left) and her friends from Snoball! So so pretty!!!

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It was very bitter sweet seeing her with her date and taking all their pictures. She’s growing up so fast and seeing her grow up, makes me realize that I, too, am growing up. I can see now why parents always get emotional at times like these. Granted I’m not a parent yet, but if I can get emotional seeing her grow up, I can’t imagine what I’ll be like if I ever do have children.

After I got done taking all their pictures, I went over to my best friends house to have game night! We ate and had a merry time. I brought over Cards Against Humanity and we played and drank (I drank water while they drank alcohol. I’m still paranoid I will feel like crap after drinking because of it mixing with the meds I take).


 

Sunday

What did I do yesterday? Man, it’s kind of seeming like a blur… oh yes, I remember now! Gym and I went to the lake to bring groceries out to my aunt who needed them! “The beast” (furnace) went out and so she couldn’t leave the house. After all was said and done, I went back home, and took a little nap, and then watched The Golden Globes.

It was a glorious Sunday!


That brings me to today…

I have done absolutely nothing today. I slept in the chair with Mozzie all morning. I really couldn’t do much of anything because our water heater went out so the men were installing a new one in the basement. After they left, my dad treated me to Perkins for brunch. Really… that’s all that has happened so far. I may be going shopping later with my mom and then I’ll head on to the gym at some point as well. Just enjoying the last day off of my three day weekend.


 

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

Until next time…

Aubrie

 

 

 

 

 

2016.

It’s here. The new year.

How did your first day go? Did some habits roll over?

Mine did. Not as bad, but to some extent yes.

I started my day by drinking a Mimosa. Why? Because I for starters had extra champagne from the night before and secondly, mimosa’s are just so good!! I stupidly didn’t eat anything for breakfast besides a cheese stick, but then for lunch at leftovers from last nights dinner. Let’s just back up to NYE…

It started as any other day, except I was in a very chipper mood. The year was coming to an end, and I was trying to think of all the good things that had happened. I don’t know if it’s the old age kicking in (haha I kid…) or that I didn’t have all that many fun adventures in 2015,  but it was so hard to remember all that I did. I mean I remember the basics… Finally joined a gym, road tripped to Chicago, spent time at the lake… I feel like there was more, but I honestly just can’t remember them! After knowing I couldn’t remember all that happened, I left to go to work. This is when everything went down the drain. Work was a nightmare. We didn’t have a stylist there, and of course, everyone and their mother (quite literally) was wanting a haircut. I had to turn away so many people, and I would definitely say about every other person that came in, got extremely pissed and yelled or said not so nice things to me. One lady even made me cry! It was so bad… That’s retail as I’m told though. I just have to shake it off because I have nothing to do with it. It’s hard to do though when you’re the type of person who takes things to heart… very easily. After hours of having people get mad at me, I was really looking forward to getting Caribou Coffee during my break. My mom came and we went off to get our coffee! Caribou had a buy one get one free deal going on for perks members, so I was extremely excited! It always seems like it takes years to finally get something you’ve been craving for all day. Once we got inside and were walking to Caribou, I saw that none of the workers were behind the counter, and that there was a sign in the front… I walked up to it to read that… “CLOSED DUE TO TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES”… Can you imagine the heartache I was feeling?? We asked and it would be quite awhile for them to be up and running again. I only had a half hour break, so we sadly had to leave… with no coffee. I really hadn’t used the bathroom that day because I was so busy telling customers there were no stylists, so I really had to go. I started my way over the bathroom since we couldn’t get coffee and guess what… The bathroom was closed as well. You must know the feeling… The feeling of, “well if one thing is going wrong, everything that follows is going to go to sh*t as well!” Once I finally got back, things didn’t end up getting any better at work. I only had a handful of customers actually buy product, and the rest of the people that came in, still continued to get mad at me.

Once I got home, it was like a weight had been lifted off. My mom was already starting to cook our dinner (we had an appetizer dinner!).

While we ate we watched Spy (love that movie!!!) and had our fair share of laughs. Then, while my mom fell asleep, I continued to stay up until midnight to see the ball drop. I had my annual cry as it dropped and as Auld Lang Syne played and cried even harder while New York, New York played.

My favorite version of Auld Lang Syne =

All in all… Even though my NYE wasn’t the best during the day, my night really ended fantastically. I was safely at home and spent it with my parents and my pups. I was surrounded by family. Isn’t that everyone’s wish? There’s really nothing that I should complain about.


 

My New Year’s Day has been completely awesome. I slept until 9am, watched Hot Pursuit with my mom, and just totally vegged all day. I was able to update my Weight Watcher recipes from plus points to smart points, and then we watched an extremely sappy Hallmark Christmas Movie.

Later in the evening we got together with Connie, Joe, and Sarah and headed to Pizza Ranch for a fun get together, then came back to our house and played games. We played Mad Gab until everyone was sick of it, and then we taught them how to play Nuts. It’s such a fun card game. I was even the big winner! Whoohoo!

So see? It was a fantastic New Year’s Eve/Day for me this year!


 

I thought a lot about what I want my resolutions to be this year and for the longest time, I really only could come up with one thing….

  1. My resolution is to not have a resolution.

Why? Because how many times do people make resolutions and then either never follow through or start, or start and go for a couple months and then stop? Then, after stopping get totally disappointed in themselves and wonder, why did I even make that a resolution?

After I thought of all that, then I started to get mad at myself. Did I not learn to not get disappointed in myself? I’m starting to go right back down the same rabbit hole if I keep this up! So I decided to think of other kind of resolutions for myself instead of the usual “lose 50 pounds”, “stop eating sweets”, and “no more pop”.

  1. Be happy with who I am and in my own skin.
  2. Smile and laugh more (this isn’t going to be hard!)
  3. Slow down and not be in such a rush all the time.
  4. Be a better helper around my house.
  5. Write more on my blog. 🙂

I think that’s a nice start to my list. I mean, I can always add more as the weeks go on. I think I may actually do a good job with my resolutions this year! Whoohoo!


 

Well friends, I think that’s it for today, considering by the time I’m finally finishing this it’s 12:21 am on  January 2nd.

Hey, at least I’m making a post! 😉

I hope you all had a wonderful NYE and NYD and a wonderful, brand new start to 2016.

It’s our year to shine.

Until next time…
Aubrie

Let the countdown begin…

Less than 24 hours stands in between 2015 and 2016. I was asked on Instagram what I learned this year. This year really has been one in the record books. There were some firsts – first date, first day at a new job…  things I’m leaving behind – being a nanny, friendships… When I look back at this year in a whole, I’m proud that I’m still here standing tall. So many things happened this year emotionally and physically that if I hadn’t been strong enough to overcome, I don’t know exactly where I would have ended up. I’m still here though, and I’m still fighting. Listed below are the “3 Things 2015 Taught Me”:

  1. I need to lose weight for me and not so people will like me. When I first started this journey, I started because I was 24, single, and unhappy. I thought that the only way a guy would like me was if I was skinny and pretty. I started the year off by thinking I wasn’t good enough for anyone. It took me the whole year to realize… Fuck those guys who only care about the outside and not about what truly matters… The inside. I’m losing weight and getting healthy for ME. No one else. It’s such a huge relief to finally not fully care what people think. I mean, I can go to the gym with my head held high and see those “hot guys” there and not feel intimidated. (Well sometimes I do just a little but it’s only because they are extremely good looking… I am a girl after all!)

  2. I don’t have to be afraid of what people think or say if I stumble on this journey. Most importantly, I don’t have to be disappointed in myself if and when I stumble. When I started, I felt so guilty if I ever slipped up because “what are people going to think?” Or “why did I allow myself to do this?”I’ve said it once and I will continue to say it… I didn’t get this size over night. It’s gonna take a lot of effort and time. I’ve learned that, shit, I’ve fallen on my ass so many times and yet I STILL get up and continue on. I’ve seen so many people try their hardest and end up giving up. I will never give up.
  3.  There are so many other wonderful people out there going and feeling the exact same thing(s) as me! I’m so thankful each every day for my awesome and newfound family on Instagram and the blogs. Like I said in a previous post, I don’t know what I’d do without all of you. I’ve learned to open up and not be afraid of what I’m going through and dealing with. Posting my weight… that was a huge thing to overcome. I was always afraid of, “These people are going to see my weight… what if I know someone that see’s this?” That all went out the window after talking and getting to know everyone. We don’t need to feel ashamed or embarrassed. I saw a post on Instagram that said, “You are not fat. You have fat. You also have fingernails but you are not fingernails.” What an awesome message. 

2015

what a year. I’m ready to move on to 2016. I’m ready for a new year full of firsts. I’m ready for a fresh start. I’m ready for a brand new chapter.


 

I have a few little updates since I wrote yesterday…

  • So this happened…

Oh my body. So I went to the gym thinking, "I'm just going to start watching Coyote Ugly since Netflix is stupidly getting rid of it in January." Well… That turned into me watching the whole damn movie because I a.) love it so much and b.) I might as well actually DO something than just sit on my butt and watch it. My legs feel like jello right now though! I am definitely going to sleep oh so well tonight!!! I also listened to 20 minutes or so of one of my favorite playlists on the RockMyRun app. LOVE this playlist!!! It's so damn good! If you have the app… Totally take a listen. If you don't have the app… Get this app! It's FREE!!! #fitfam #fitness #gymtherapy #gymtime #weightwatchers #imbeat #keepmoving #treadmill #walking #coyoteugly #rockmyrun #gymstats #GoalDigger #fitgirls #wwfattitude #wwfam #cantgiveup #cantstopwontstop

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5 miles… whoa! If that’s not an accomplishment, I don’t know what is!

  • I FINALLY finished Moby Dick!!!!!!
  • I started and finished Freaky Friday, and then I started Who Moved My Cheese today and finished that as well! (If you haven’t ready Who Moved My Cheese yet… Oh you must! It’s a WONDERFUL read! It talks about the fear of change, and how some people react. It also talks about stepping out of your comfort zone in order for change to happen. Seriously… it’s such a good book!!!)

 

Well friends, I think that’s it really… for now.

Thanks to all of you who are still sticking by me.

Until next time…

Aubrie

 

Last 2015 Weigh-In.

So today was the last official 2015 weigh in. Of course I just had to have gained. 

  
I keep telling myself not to stress about it, because at least it wasn’t higher of a gain. I mean, looking back to the past week, I ate a lot of junk! I stuffed myself to the brim with such wonderful food on Christmas! We had smoked turkey, pulled pork, prime rib, calico beans with bacon, cheesy hash brown casserole, scalloped potatoes with ham, green bean casserole, scalloped corn casserole, deviled eggs, wheat and white dinner rolls, and a great big veggie tray. We also had homemade Chex mix on top of that! Looking back… Holy food! We had so much! But it was so delicious! After we ate and played some games, it was of course time for dessert! There was cherry pie, blueberry pie, pumpkin pie, apple pie, blueberry marshmallow pie, cookies upon cookies and ice cream. I only had a sliver of cherry and blueberry, but I also ate my fair share of cookies. 

Honestly, how did I ONLY gain 1.3 pounds?! With all of that I should have gained more! When it was all said and done, I’m glad I didn’t restrict myself on Christmas. It made me realize that I really can’t continue to eat like that. I Rene bee when I first started Weight Watchers, I thought I would keel over because I was having to cut my portion sizes. After this Christmas, I realized that I now get full after the smallest of meals. So thanks Weight Watchers for helping me realize I can eat smaller meals and still be full. 

Well I think that’s it for today’s posting. I will continue the fight against obesity! 

Until next time… 

Aubrie

Hello.

I don’t know why blogging can be so easy some days and then bam! I never write again in over a month.

Life has been very hectic after I quit being a nanny and started my new job in November. I love writing on my blog, but I just haven’t found the time sadly. I’ve stayed in touch with my Instagram and Facebook friends, but haven’t really connected with my fellow bloggers. Sorry for that. I really don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have any of you (bloggers, instagramers, and facebookers) in my life! I rely on all of you so much!!


 

Anywho, enough of that mushy stuff…

Onto how I’ve been!

So as I stated above… I left my nanny family and started my new job in November. It’s been a month now since I started and I’m feeling very indifferent about the new change in my life.

I miss my nanny kiddos every single day. I still have days where I think to myself, “Did I make the right decision?” I then think about it more and know that it was my time to move on. The kids are growing up, and pretty soon, won’t need me anymore. I was already starting to get less and less hours during the week and getting majority of my hours on the weekend. I didn’t see my family, and wasn’t seeing my friends at all anymore. Plus, I was spending so much money on gas and time in the car. So that alone, makes me glad I found a job in my town and not an hour away. The new job has had it’s challenges. I’m by myself every day. I have a few customers that come in, or I see friends and people I know that I talk with, but I also have the rude and crabby people who yell and take out their frustrations on me as well. Boo retail. I never realized how some people can be just so rude to one another. Our stylist had a family member pass within this week, and when I would let the customers know why she wasn’t here, they made rude comments and honestly were just downright mean. I will never understand people like that. I have to remind myself more and more these days this… “At least you are in town… You only have a 10 minute commute rather than an hour. You’re not in your car as much, and you’re gaining customer service experience.” I mean, who wouldn’t love to change things about their jobs? I just gotta keep trucking and keep at it.


 

Eating and exercise wise, has been totally off though sadly. Ever since Thanksgiving, my mind has been checked out for eating healthy. My mind has been set to holiday food mode and has been insanely hard to switch back to weight watcher friendly mode. Luckily though, I haven’t made much gains! That’s always good!!!!! Health wise and gym wise… for about a month, I was dealing with intense dizzy spells, headaches, and stomach aches. I went to the Dr. and got tons of blood taken for analysis, but it all came back normal. I’m healthy at least! We are thinking it’s just a bad case of Vertigo. It’s gotten better in the past couple weeks, so I finally got back to the gym. It felt good being back. I went out and got new gym clothes (just sweatshirt pull overs and workout pants… how can I live in cold Minnesota and only have one pair of workout pants???)


 

Hmm… What else is there to update you about? Right now, I have no clue! OH!!!!! I know!!!

I am almost finished with Moby Dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you guys know how long it has taken me to read this damn book!?! Well over a flipping’ year! It’s taken me so long!! I have 40-something more pages! So I’m heading to the Library now to check out a new one to check off The Rory Gilmore Reading Challenge!


 

Alright friends… We are supposed to be getting a huge winter storm in the next couple hours so I gotta get up and moving to get my butt to the library!!!!

Talk to you all very soon…

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Week 1 Results: -3.6.

Whoohoo! Down 3.6 lbs. after my first week back on track! I’m super proud! I worked hard this week and definitely ate great too! What’s great about being back on track is the way I feel like I never stopped. Tracking is so easy this time around for some reason. Before I would always get frustrated, now though I’ve come to the realization that I like tracking everything! Definitely keeps me on point.

Another fun thing that happened was that I finished Day 1 of Couch to 5K last night! Whoohoo!! I actually jogged and everything! Man, I was on top of the moon once I finished.

Here’s some good vibes for a good week!

I ran.

That’s right. You read it right.

I actually ran.

Not for very long or very far, BUT I ran.

I ran twice during my 70+ minute walk. The first short mini run I started off feeling “wow, I like this…” and then I saw people. Now, normally I would stop because, “I don’t want people to witness all of this flopping around.” A little voice screamed out though in me and said, “No. Keep going.” Thank God for that little voice because all of a sudden I had a surge of confidence and just kept going. I ran right past those people (who actually gave me a little wave 🙂 ). Yes I was huffing and puffing it, but I didn’t care.

The second mini running burst came shortly after I caught my breath. I was curious to see how long I could run at a time, so I pulled up the stopwatch on my phone, pushed start and took off. People, this is an all time record for me. This is a huge deal…

I’m not a runner. I’ve never been a runner. In elementary, middle, and high school, I was in sports, and yes we had to run, but I was never good at it, and I would always start and stop right away. I was always the last one back, and I never got the mile done in under 10 minutes. In high school, I got by without doing the mile with the asthma card, so I didn’t even try. In my adult life, I haven’t been able to run even a minute without getting embarrassed someone would see me, feeling like I was going to die, or just having zero motivation to even try. So can you see why this is a huge deal for me? I texted my best friend the minute I finished. I was so proud of myself! I said I was on verge of crying, and even though I didn’t tell her, I actually started to a little.

So if you take away anything from this post, I want it to be that you can do anything if you just believe in yourself and have faith. Throw out the doubts, and just give it a shot. 🙂

You can do it! I believe in you!